2002. Gave up my faith, challenged my concept of who I was socially and professionally, gained about 80 lbs, and went through a series of depressions. My grades plummeted, I changed majors a number of times, pushed myself to the point of failing. Became anti-social, strange, clingy, and a whole host of other unhealthy personality traits. Contemplated nihilism and suicide.
The four years that followed have been a growth spurt for me. I have had a number of challenges and dark times since my sophomore year of college, but my outlook and my optimism has kept me going. I know now that I will meet my challenges and trials and survive them, and I know now that failure can be more of a growth opportunity than success. I've failed now, many times, and each time I allow myself to feel the sting and the humiliation, and then I learn from it.
If you let yourself be pushed around or you let the negative experiences weigh on you, you'll always be captive to someone or something. If you think too much of what other people think of you, you'll never truly be who you want to be.
What's that Dr. Seuss quote? Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. Be honest and be a friend, be nurturing and allow others to share in your life and in your person, but always be true to yourself.