You said: "I hope you never lose the beliefs that you've won and can't fall. Those seem to be important to you. I don't need to believe either of those things. Heaven is for those who need heaven.
In the first place nothing in that statement implies that heaven is for those who need heaven. Heaven is when the ego self, the divided self, is not. If one experiences a state of unity the experience can't be taken away. It's not a matter of importance but a statement of fact and the means by which recovery is possible.
But the point here is that what you say now in not implied in the earlier quote as I read it. The implication appeared to me to be that you do not need any hope because you can never experience need and now you say you do have hope because you know that you might have need. As someone who did have such a need and found one, I wanted to offer my suggestions that might point to where the door is.
I think you and I have a different conception of "heaven."
It seems to me that you consider the state of feeling "I've won and I know I won't ever fall again" to be transcendently good. So good that you want to help others to get to their own version of that same place. Well, that sounds to me like the pursuit of "heaven." The conception of what "heaven" is is obviously different for different people and different faiths, but the idea of wanting to arrive at some blissful state is the common feature. But for those who don't feel the need for being in a "blissful state," the pursuit isn't meaningful. Hence, "Heaven is for those who need heaven."
Well if you know you can fall then I don't see how I am projecting my issues because I know what I know because I fell. I'm passing along as best I can what I feel to be useful information, possibly for future reference.
The projection I was referring to was your statement "I know that you can't help the I'm saved your not scenario," which I interpreted to mean that you think I'm the one continually claiming "I'm saved, but you're not." My follow-on to that was to point out that I certainly don't consider myself to be "saved" in any way; I only reiterated that my life is pretty good, but that I know I'm not immune to bad things happening, as a way of helping you to understand just how "not saved" I consider myself to be.
If you can't recognize that you, not I, make the ("I'm saved, you're not") claim all the time, then I really don't know what to say other than to advise you to read back over your posts and see just how often you do say it. Yet your statement is that I'm the one who "can't help" making that boast. In other words, you interpret my statement that "My life is pretty good" as equivalent to "I'm saved, you're not." That's "projection."
And, Moonbeam, you do this sort of things in many different contexts. I read your responses to others' posts, and I try to objectively evaluate where you and others are coming from. You'd be surprised just how often I see you stating that others are playing some particular intellectual game when in fact it's you, not them, who have been doing that game-playing. It's so bad sometimes that I find myself wondering if you have a some sort of mental illness that makes it too painful for you to look at yourself.
This aversion to introspection which I see in you becomes worse and worse the more the focus of the interaction moves onto your own mental state and behavior. Which, is why, unfortunately, I can almost guarantee that your response to this post is going to twist and turn statements on their heads - anything to remove the real focus from yourself.
I sincerely apologize for making you feel uncomfortable.
So what is this irritation that I project my issues. I have been posting, in my opinion, interestingly enough, from 1999 on the subject of projection. It's cause by the fact that we do not want to see our own self hate so we see our hate in others. I would be curious if you had an alternative method to account for it. I have been conscious for some time that you are being gentle and I thank you for it.
I think I've described why I get irritated. But when I meditate on it awhile, my irritation fades and gets replaced with a sense of compassion for you.
Peace.