brianmanahan
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is partial lobectomy/lobotomy still an option that is considered medically for such conditions? serious question.
is partial lobectomy/lobotomy still an option that is considered medically for such conditions? serious question.
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Charmonium
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ninaholic37
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Telemarketers are the second lowest scums of the earth, right after people who gets jobs in authority positions like law enforcement in my opinion. The funniest thing is that the telemarketer didn't get charged for HARASSMENT even though they exposed themselves and what they're doing to the police. Now the police know who the telemarketers are but easier to blame the OP because the HARASSERS feed the police by taxes from working. Both jobs are garbage but together they try to justify their circle-jerk stupidity at the expense of normal people who could have just been left alone with no harm being done.
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Major depressive disorder for me:
-low energy
-erratic sleeping patterns.
-Extremely difficult to get started in the morning.
-Trouble starting and completing tasks.
-Lack of motivation
-Lack of self confidence
-Almost never meet goals, frequently procrastinate.
-Lack of focus/attention span.
-Symptoms persist for many years. In my case, nearly 20 years.
Etc.
Small things that help or helped me a little bit:
-Keeping my mind occupied with doing something, etc gaming or internet.
-Depending on how I feel, sometimes I have enough energy to do some sort of outdoor activity.
-Learned to quit caring about what others think about me.
-low energy
-erratic sleeping patterns.
-Extremely difficult to get started in the morning.
-Trouble starting and completing tasks.
-Lack of motivation
-Lack of self confidence
-Almost never meet goals, frequently procrastinate.
-Lack of focus/attention span.
-Symptoms persist for many years. In my case, nearly 20 years.
Etc.
Small things that help or helped me a little bit:
-Keeping my mind occupied with doing something, etc gaming or internet.
-Depending on how I feel, sometimes I have enough energy to do some sort of outdoor activity.
-Learned to quit caring about what others think about me.
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I fucking hate cops. Any single opportunity life grants me to undermine the position of a cop, I'll take. Protect and serve? AHAHAHAHA!!! They're nothing but minions for the state and local governments to go out and collect fines for minor infractions, but they'll truck in an MRAPs + swat team to kick grandma's door in because they found out she owns a .38 revolver. Not one single cell in my body has any respect for these scum. They're each their own little hitler in some way. Just not quite as smart, and not quite as funny.
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brianmanahan
Lifer
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brianmanahan
Lifer
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actually, mindsets are not an inherited trait
but if "something something mtDNA" makes you feel better, by all means, something something mtDNA
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MongGrel
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The REBT system doesn't work for me personally, but it has worked for some others. I can't really apply something like that to anger management and/or psychosis. Because that requires you have a window to stop and think about the situation before rage sets in and often rage sets in very quickly like in .1 secs. I had a therapist try to disagree with me and of course I had a sarcastic reply to the idea. Yeah, so I'm in the middle of a psychotic breakdown - In comes the sunshine and rainbows R...E...B...T like magic!
I'm not sure any sort of therapy works for anger management issues. Speaking for me personally, it definitely hasn't ever worked.
Coping mechanisms for anger management issues are to direct my rage in the least destructive way possible. Trying to stop it from happening is a losing battle. I basically quit trying to quit raging.
Would you guys like to see my casualty list over the years for electronic devices, gaming systems, etc? Rough estimate, give or take a few. Too many to recall exactly.
Console systems + games + pads:
- x1 NES system, 1 controller (these were tough).
- x2 Sega Genesis/Megadrive systems. 2-3 controllers.
- x1 SNES about 3 controllers.
- x3 PS1 systems. About 8 controllers.
- x3 PS2 systems. About 10 controllers.
- x2 PS3 systems. 4 controllers.
- x40 estimated disks + carts.
PCs:
x3 PCs demolished.
Misc PC devices:
x4 monitors.
x12+ mice.
x12+ keyboards.
PC desks victim to double fist smash pwnage:
x3.
(I ended up making one that's steel reinforced)
Windows broken in rage:
x12+
(good at fixing these)
Holes punched in walls:
x20+
(Good at fixing these too)
Doors demolished:
x4
Weed eaters:
x2
Lawn mowers:
x2
Etc, but that should give you guys some sorta idea about how bad my issues are. That amounts to THOUSANDS of dollars worth of destroyed property over the years. I'd say its bordering closer to 10 grand.
I'm not sure any sort of therapy works for anger management issues. Speaking for me personally, it definitely hasn't ever worked.
Coping mechanisms for anger management issues are to direct my rage in the least destructive way possible. Trying to stop it from happening is a losing battle. I basically quit trying to quit raging.
Would you guys like to see my casualty list over the years for electronic devices, gaming systems, etc? Rough estimate, give or take a few. Too many to recall exactly.
Console systems + games + pads:
- x1 NES system, 1 controller (these were tough).
- x2 Sega Genesis/Megadrive systems. 2-3 controllers.
- x1 SNES about 3 controllers.
- x3 PS1 systems. About 8 controllers.
- x3 PS2 systems. About 10 controllers.
- x2 PS3 systems. 4 controllers.
- x40 estimated disks + carts.
PCs:
x3 PCs demolished.
Misc PC devices:
x4 monitors.
x12+ mice.
x12+ keyboards.
PC desks victim to double fist smash pwnage:
x3.
(I ended up making one that's steel reinforced)
Windows broken in rage:
x12+
(good at fixing these)
Holes punched in walls:
x20+
(Good at fixing these too)
Doors demolished:
x4
Weed eaters:
x2
Lawn mowers:
x2
Etc, but that should give you guys some sorta idea about how bad my issues are. That amounts to THOUSANDS of dollars worth of destroyed property over the years. I'd say its bordering closer to 10 grand.
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Did OP ever actually say he has prescriptions for all of these drugs or was it merely implied?
My girlfriend has had some positive results from it - mind you, this is treating the depression end of BPD and her symptoms sound very different from yours.
There are however a couple big caveats. Thus far she has needed maintenance treatment every week where the original intention was something more like once a month. And it has wiped away a lot of her memories and even ability to form new short term memories, although that much is at least getting better.
OP has it out for walls and inanimate objects. Do you ever hit living things OP?
Also, have you tried taking large quantities of different illegal drugs? I hear it's gangbusters.
Also, have you tried taking large quantities of different illegal drugs? I hear it's gangbusters.
He says he has four assault charges against him and has made three of them go away with insanity pleas.
Which is pretty disturbing since there's clearly a pattern that isn't being successfully treated.
Obviously inpatient isn't helping him and is probably just making him angrier but at some point something has to be done to keep him from harming other people.
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#1 - Char has no clue what he/she is talking about. Not an expert.
#2 - Yes I am on those medications. Keep in mind I'm someone that hasn't had much success on meds, and each person is different. The combination could be unorthodox, I don't know but I'm pretty sure psychiatrists don't defer to Char to determine an acceptable combination of meds. My case is the exception, not the rule. Meds haven't worked for me that much up to this point.
The solution is for me to avoid being around people. I live in a rural area in Kentucky. People that know me personally know not to provoke me. I'm not a threat to people if they don't bother me. The only reason I am NOT locked up in an institution full time is that I'm aware that there are things you can and cannot do. Some might call it right vs wrong, but I define it as can vs can't, which is good enough for them.
When I was housed in inpatient in 2011, I had a psychotic breakdown in the facility, and they threw me in a padded cell with no straight jacket, and I took a dump on the floor and started throwing shit all over the room. I didn't remember doing that, but they showed me the video tape later. I behaved like an aggressive howler monkey.
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I have no doubt you're taking those medications, I just don't know if it was spelled out in certainty that you have actual prescriptions. It's not that hard to get prescription medication without the actual prescriptions. But okay, it sounds like this is down to prescription.
It's good that you're doing something to manage this. Something practical and pragmatic and not just focused on therapy or personal improvement. On some level people in your sort of situation have to focus on keeping themselves away from difficult or instigating circumstances altogether instead of only trying to improve their coping abilities. And knowing that pretty much anything can escalate and quickly become something that's out of your control, and therefore you must do whatever you can to reduce risk of anything starting. It looks like you understand this.
But only after you had four assault charges. Now you can tell me if you think these were a big deal and if you harmed anyone as opposed to merely freaking people out. But if you really were a danger to other people I hope you're doing something differently now that makes you less of one.
Inpatient (or better yet let's just call it institutionalization) sounds like it could be the worst possible treatment for you and calling it life ruining is probably putting it mildly. But if the powers that be feel like there's nothing else they can do to protect society from you I'm not really sure what else can happen, short of throwing you out into the wilderness somewhere to fend for yourself alone. None of this sounds very fair and not the kind of thing I'd ever like to know happens, I just hope it isn't necessary.
Dr. Zaus
Lifer
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So what is it you didn't get done that needed to get done?
Because this level of frustration with the world comes from a sense that you needed to do something, but it isn't getting done.
When you uncover that and work through it you'll fix your situation.
If I had to hazard a guess, it has to do with something you needed to obtain or consume. Something highly prized in society, or learned by you as a child as fundamental to being a proper person.
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