Originally posted by: Blindman
Hay buddy,
My name is Noah Wang. I am a better person today because I am no longer with my ex.
You can too.
Can't tell if that was supposed to be humor or not. I just came home and LOOKy LOOKy I got an e-mail after that IM convo. My comments in highlight.
Davi,
you won't have to change your email and your number. i'm not going to beg you back, can't believe you said that you egotistical !#$%$%
Why don't you take my life while your at it? You took my heart. Many times I think what is the point anymore anyway. I lived in hell and I just want out. I loved you. I truely did and I never will love somebody so thoroughly and so passionaltey as I did you. I loved everything about you. The problem was you just didn't want me. and that is why i took you everywhere i went and helped you with everything that you needed, that's also why i propsed You fvcking never did. I feel used especially now that you still call me names. i call liars "liars", i call b1tches "b1tches", if she'd stop being both, i wouldn't have to call her names. You know, you don't need to bring me down anymore b/c I'm already down. you ask a question i answer it. if facts bring you down, then don't ask questions.I live in pain, Davi. I've been through a lot of pain. ???? going out with others, partying with them, having sex with them, going out on breakfast with some random dude on your b-day and telling me that you'e busy with school work. sounds painful.I just want like everyone else to have somebody to love who actually loves me back and I wanted a simple life. hard to have a simple life while juggling 5 guys and school work. and oh, sorry i didn't love u, i just treated you better then i treated myself because i didn't love uI hate you for blaming everything on me. I fvcking HATE you for that. You are so proud and think you were so perfect. Well if you were then why the HELL did it not work out. let's see, I never cheated on you. I never lied to you. when i went to a strip club due to a bachelor party, i told you about it. yes i'm blaming you, u lied to me constantly and promised never to again. you cheated on me many times, i'm not perfect, but i did the best to take care of you and why it didn't work out? gee go wonder....You think b/c I just wanted to mess things up? no i just think that you wanted to have a whole lotta fun and didn't think you'd get caughtDid you ever think that you never made me feel that you truely wanted to marry me? then why did you say yes?Did you ever think that you gave me the love and support and belief that I needed? you must seriously have EXTRA major needs, all my friends already though i was doing too much for you and thinking about you to much Yes, you did nice things for me at times, you mean every time i saw youbut you were a SH1TTY and I mean SH1TTY boyfriend. You always were. wish i had known this before hand, reminds me of the wedding singer where she tells me the day before that she can't marry himI felt insecure, used, and was constantly afraid that things weren't going to work out b/c you weren't ready for anything. thanks for telling me that now, or is it an excuse for cheating, lying? you know you could have just dumped me and then went on with other fellasAdmit it Davi. If you truely wanted to marry me you would have respected my #@%%^^ family. You know I love my family and to do this to them. how did i disrespect them again? you mean by helping them solve stupid computer problems, fixing the garage door opener, donating my computer monitor to your brother cause he lost his job and couldn't get another one, buying your niece and nephew x'mas gifts, taking them out to eat, oh yah, i forgot, i did disrespect them once when they caught us in your bedroom, i told you we shouldn't, but you insisted, sorry about that ONE TIME of disrespecting your family I was so fvcking used. So why don't you kill me? Why don't you get revenge on me? well, thank you for the official permission to do soDo it Davi, Thanks for confirming the permission b/c I'd be happy to die.you know i would never hurt a girl physically, but you know mentally.... You've taken everything else--my dignity, my love, my heart, and shooved it. why are you repeating what I told you last month, be original for once.You want your ring? Take it. Take everything. okYou fvcking hurt me like nobody else. I cried everyday calling my father when you never call. you wanted me to call you after you got caught with all your lies? you're kidding right?My dad knows how I feel about you and has been there for me.i know, as i recall, he said that i wasn't good enough for you
You can't even talk to me like a normal human being...newsflash, you're not human all you do is cuss and put me down. zzzzZZZWell Davi you killed me inside. You will know one day. There is one life to live. And you are making your choices now. One Life, davi. i realized that and thus why i'm moving on, i believe good people exist, you're just not one of them.Is this the way you thank somebody that only wanted the best for you? thank you for messing up my friendships with my guy friends, i wanted that. and thank you for lying to my folks, that's best for me alright, and thank you for making me realize not to trust people anymore, i REALLY wanted that.That believed so much in you? the only thing you believed was that you wouldn't get caught. Didn't i tell u last year not to lie to me or ever cheat on me? Didn't i tell you that if you do, make sure I don't find out? Didn't i also tell you that if you want to see someone else, just tell me and i'll deal with it. How many times have I told you that it's WAY WORSE to find out that someone is lying to you and decieving you? That it's better to just tell them your intentions. The person will get hurt one way or another, but at least he won't be as hurt
I knew it had to be you to come back to me. I will not go back to you b/c I already did the beginning of the summer thinking we were really going to try again. that's what i thought untill i found out that you were seeing Jose's roomate behind Jose's back and that his roomate saw ya'll kissing at a party. boy did i find that event amusing. wait a minute we were still together then weren't we? And look how you treated me? Not calling me and not being my friend. I always was so sad with you. sorry for putting a gun to your head to stay with me
You think I'm full of lies? yes, and how many times have i proven that? want to see some more concrete proof? here are e-mails from you to the other dudes, oh wait you couldn't have written them, they ONLY came from YOUR e-mail account and has driving directions to your place with YOUR cell number. Your dead wrong. is she really going to kill me? I lived in hell.you ARE hell You want to call me names? no, i want you out of my life I'm sorry I loved you and am sorry I ever met you. Took the words right out of my mouth
i'm not going to send her a reply to this e-mail since everything she's saying has been said in quite a few previous e-mails. And I've replied to all of those e-mails with the same answers. i don't udnerstand why i have to repeat myself so many times. if you guys just saw our e-mails to one another, you'll notice how she always calls me a sh1tty bf but never has proven it but all the things i call her, i back it up with at least 3 examples and plenty of solid evidence. And she loves to ask the same questions over and over again like she's always trying to find dirt on me so she can point fingers also. tough luck on that happening. Its not about winning an argument but defending myself when she points fingers.
She is such a hypocrite, and so is the family. They preach all these things to me about how I should do my own homework and not lie and be forgiving. Then when it has to with their daughter, they do opposite of what they tell me. Bastards!!
I sat down with my best friend once, and we had a long discussion about her. We couldn't figure out why she does what she does. She knows what's wrong and what isn't. To top it off she tells me that she was living in Hell when she was sleeping with those guys. Is she bipolar? Does she have multiple personalities?
We seriously think she's psycho. I still can't figure out how i used her or what i used her for?
Bottom line is that I wouldn't be this upset if she/her family didn't blame me for her fvckups. If she didn't blame me for the breakup and worst of all causing HER pain. I can't stand hypocrites. I can't stand psychos.