This is not healthy. I have been ignoring the symptoms of chronic depression for far too long, and been ignoring my emotional, social, and physical health. This forum has become a time sinkhole and a way for me to blind myself to the reality of those aspects. I am not blaming this forum or anyone on it; rather, I am recognizing my own weakness and propensity for addiction and avoidance, and realizing that I need to face that weakness and devote myself to overcoming it. I am taking steps to face that weakness; this is one of them.