I don't think it is exactly fair for Ajay to say you don't want to know Him because it is not something you have a choice about feeling. All of your experiences point to the fact that the so called God of religion is a joke and, of course it is. There is almost nothing in our cultural exposure in the West to suggest that the actual phenomenon represented by a bearded man in the sky is the thingi that these ancient goat herders, as you may like to refer to them, was the actual source of their inspiration.Neither do you, but you are clearly sold on the fairy tale.
Modern science with the help of brain stimulation can produce a state where one feels an otherly presence and a state of certainty they are not alone. You may never have considered that real religion is a science that involves the perfection of life experience by means of techniques that alter the chemistry of the brain. Now, what are altered states of the mind from a Western scientific perspective can simply be dismissed as madness or self delusional tricks as the externally propounded verbal explanations of such states are only words that can never transfer from one person to another what the actual conscious experience is like.
So let us consider the fact that Ajay has experienced a conscious state that has transferred to him a certainty that we are not alone in the world, but loved by something we can experience but not feel.
You may not have experienced such a state. I would say you have buried all awareness that you once lived in such grace, but that does not mean that he has not experienced something he might call being reborn in Christ.
Personally, I would find it rather cruel to try to take that from him. You, however, might consider being open to some other path than a Abrahamic one to what some might call a deeper experience of life since having experienced such a sense of inner Presence may be quite different than regarding is as merely chemicals. Reports have come in that it can be life altering and end suffering. Magic, could it be real?