Originally posted by: Majesty
I can't belive my last ten years were lived for... nothing.
That's the key, right there. I used to think that too. However, my wild anger on my similar subject drives me to better my life - to give myself and someone else everything that she wanted in life that she's going to subconsciously keep running from when she gets comfortable.
Take your happy memories and cherrish them because that's all that the last 10 years will give you, besides that last moment when it ended. Use that last moment to turn those happy memories into "it's all lies" and let that feed your hurt, pain, suffering, anger, and every other abrasive emotion that you can muster and let THAT result be your motivation.
You will find yourself much stronger and better than you ever were with her.
When the pain and anger subsides, when you just don't give a fvck anymore, you can either choose to let bitterness replace the dying hatred that used to motivate you or you can try your hand again at love if you're willing to make yourself vulnerable again.
Either way, you're going to kick ass and chew bubble gum. :thumbsup: While it's a sad thing to happen, I love watching people rise from the wreckage of life with stronger, better, with stronger resolve than their miserable rut they were in before.