Originally posted by: x80064
Well....I'm not ashamed at all. Here's my story. I will turn 30 years old in February. My wife will turn 28 in February. Her and I have been married since March 13 1995......I first had a elementary school crush on her when I was in the 4th grade...she was in 2nd. I remember sitting in the gym during a play one day, and I was in the back on the right side, and she was up further on the left side. She kept turning to look at me. I specifically remember looking at her and saying, I will love you forever.
Dated her for probably 3 years thereafter. I moved away. Not away really, just a few miles down the road....But she did'nt know where I moved, And since we were both living at home...as kids, kinda lost contact for 6 years. I was at my dad's one day walking home down the road...Past where my wife's sister had lived at the time....and she was there. She saw me. I had no clue she was even there.
She came out, we started talking again. And it was like nothing had ever changed. Dated a few years. She got pregnant in 95 with my first daughter. So....we go and get married...( best day of my life ) Get our own apartment. A year later, pregnant again...have our second daughter...then in 1998...Pregnant....but this time twin boy's. When the twin's were 2 years old. One choked on a marshmallow early in the morning, no oxygen to the brain, brain damage...you probably guessing what came of that. In the hospital for 3 months. Then he came home and lived on machines....only thing that was alive was the brain stem. Then passed away on Oct 9...02.
We managed to get through it pretty well, even though our parents just suck. Only come around when they want something.
In 2001....My wife and I were having discussions concerning sexual acts. She said she has had thoughts about what it would be like to see me with a guy. I kinda looked at her like WHAT? Now I love this girl with every inch of my life. I told her, I wasnt sure. One night she came home from work, and there I was...In bed with a guy. She just absolutely loved it. ( BEFORE I DID THIS...I WAS 110% STRAIGHT )
I think that kinda got me into being bi a little. So the years pass...and now I have a boyfriend of 1 year. My wife is totally cool with it...We all watch movies together, do things together ( probably not as your thinking ) Just have fun. Anyway....I care what I dress like, im sure alot of people do they just dont admit it. The purpose of this story is just to let people know that.....being gay, and or bi...is not a disease...it is a preference. I have alot of gay and bi friends. And Ill tell ya, they are the best freinds Ive ever had next to my wife. So...
just because someone thinks they are 110% not gay, or attracted to men....There are a little in everybody. Im sure 8 out of 10 has had homosexual thoughts now and again.
Now I live my life everyday just to wake up and see my kids, and my wife. Please dont make fun of my story here here as it has been difficult to tell about my twins. But I just thought I would share with people here. Give a little insight since I have been through it.
Thanks for your time and I look forward to being with Anandtech for a long time....