Originally posted by: MrDudeMan
Originally posted by: E equals MC2
Thanks for your post. It brought a smile, reminded me of my own Christian days (I'm humoring myself.)
You are absolutely on the dot. This isn't something I concluded overnight. Being raised in a Christian family (My mother is a passionate Christian) and Christian community even throughout college, I can relate. I partok in leadership roles, teaching bible study, mission trips and so on throughout my middle school, HS and college years- and I shed genuine tears and professed love for my God. It is what helped me shaped who I am today.
And now I feel that I'm ready to discover more. I'm currently 24. In the past 3 years, I started to have doubts (in Christianity sense.) I took this very seriously and longed for better understanding of my own religion- Christianity.
I actually came back from a retreat just past saturday and engaged in a very insightful discussion with the church's pastor (who holds Harvard Ph.D in theology). We talked on and on about the point you just brought up...
To simply put, it all sound like a man made rule for me. The fact that "we have to have freewill so we can love him by choice, if not we go to hell etc" just sounds too.. human-made to me. I mean, if God is really an almighty God, why is there a need for such rule?
I hope you understand what I'm struggling with in such a short response.
yes, i understand, because i have also struggled with that exact same concept. putting a human-like attribute on a mental image of god seems wrong, but it is laid before you in the bible that there are choices. you have the choice to either seek god or refuse him all together - a binary system.
you have the choice to believe in god once you have begun to seek him or not believe and conclude he doesnt exist. every way you look at this, it will provide an opposite way to go. that is the whole point IMO. you have to be willing to see where you are going and why you are going there. blindly following an idea or concept will, in the end, do you no good. if you were having trouble with your faith, then discontinuing until you found out more was the right choice.
to me at least, it is clear that we are afforded freewill to make decisions which helps make us human. that is ultimately the biggest problem with being human - we can all see the same event/concept/idea completely differently, so it gives everyone the chance to make completely exclusive choices to how they perceived said event/concept/idea. the one thing that can unify all of humanity is our ability to make a choice. it seems to me to be an over arching theme that governs our everyday life in all ways. there is always a choice.
thus, i believe if god really existed, there would have to be an alternate choice. god is love, and if you believe in god it is natural to believe that. therefore, away from god is not love, and the manifestation of not love in a human world has translated into pain and suffering. it takes a lot of personal reflection to understand some of the hurt and pain in this world, some of which i still struggle with. but, i believe what i just said to be true and have found it applies in my life. i do my best each and everyday to live a kingdom life and walk with jesus. anyone can judge me and call me any name they want, because i see that they dont understand why i believe what i believe. i cant fault them for that as their life experience with other christians may have been very poor to say the least. i am severly dissappointed in modern churches and televangilsts making the world see christianity with a tainted eye. it just isnt consistent with the book they claim to follow.