Alright, I've known this girl since 6th grade and have pined over her since. I think this girl is one of the most intelligent girls I have ever met and without a doubt, the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life. Her mom passed away in 7th grade of cancer and I believe this was when her drugs started up. She's been in and out of trouble and drugs since then but I've always kept my eye on her. In the treasured moments I talk to her, I totally don't sense any form of stupidty within her. She's really kind and has an incredible insight on things. Because she does drugs and drinks alcohol, would you consider her stupid?
She's been talking to me lately, minute little things like 'Hi' or 'How was your weekend?' and such but I simply can't subsist around her . It's a torment to me to be around her because of that feeling and knowledge of knowing she is something I can never have. I mean we truly are opposites: she's social and loves all, I'm a miserable reclusive misanthropist. Right there our personalities are dervived on our outlook so the rest is self-explanatory about us. It's surreal sitting next to her and I hate sounding like a 10-year-old boy but I can't help it. I've never been so intoxicated by a girl in my life.
I don't pity myself or anything but it's just a hard thing to swallow, the truth that is. I've tried to tell her how I felt but I know, know she'd flip because I've hinted at it before. I dunno, this has gotten me down lately.
She's been talking to me lately, minute little things like 'Hi' or 'How was your weekend?' and such but I simply can't subsist around her . It's a torment to me to be around her because of that feeling and knowledge of knowing she is something I can never have. I mean we truly are opposites: she's social and loves all, I'm a miserable reclusive misanthropist. Right there our personalities are dervived on our outlook so the rest is self-explanatory about us. It's surreal sitting next to her and I hate sounding like a 10-year-old boy but I can't help it. I've never been so intoxicated by a girl in my life.
I don't pity myself or anything but it's just a hard thing to swallow, the truth that is. I've tried to tell her how I felt but I know, know she'd flip because I've hinted at it before. I dunno, this has gotten me down lately.
