Not sure what ya mean? Again I care to be simple but I still don't understand what ya mean.
Anyway I updated the 1st post again and I can't fit the entire message so I have to put some of it here,
I care to be simple, real, and smart obviously. Again shoutouts to Charlie Wills my genuine friend. Charlie Wills has a nice ring to it lol. Charlie Wills is a funny or weird guy too in a good way. Another thing, so about becoming a parent. Well again I’m still a virgin. I’m not sure if I simply want to have kids. I feel or believe I want to remain a virgin forever. I watch porn by the way. I watch gay and straight porn. Porn can be addicting. I do prefer analog porn but since we live in this digital world ,for now, I watch digital porn or online porn. I download so much offline porn . Thanks to Alan turing we have access to so much porn billions of porn. Mind boggling. No wonder people watch porn because everybody has cheating thoughts and there are so many too hot sexy people on this earth including on porn websites. Porn or only fans or modeling or stripping or phone sex line person, if you are in a relationship is like being in an open relationship or swinging you have cheating thoughts because you are exposing yourself to people. Strippers or Prostitution is degrading to humans gay or straight by the way. The internet was made for many things including porn thanks to Alan Turing. I care to watch porn, specifically homemade or real porn. Professional porn is fake and is degrading to human beings. I won’t stand for sexual assault or rape or abuse or sexual harassment, or bothering people or bullying, or degrading humans it’s inhumane. Keeping my theory in mind, When I adopt kids I will protect my son or daughter from fake people if they decide to date or have sex. Evil People like Adrian Peterson are pieces of human garbage seeking negative attention. But people like Chris brown who hit Rhianna. Even if my theory is not correct we are still all human. Females are not special so if a female attacks or hits me I will fight back. Also again loved ones or real friends fight each other sometimes physically or verbally like arguing. Rhianna was hitting Chris so Chris was angry or upset so he had every right to be physical with Rhianna. Again females are not special they are just like us males and my theory again females are based off males remember that if you care to. Rhianna is a very attractive human. Ashley and Tracy are attractive humans as well. So are many other humans like pornstars Alexis Texas or Isis Taylor or Syren De mer or Noemilk or the trans Foxxy, the word tranny can be offensive by the way, or beauty Dior or wet peaches or Angelina Jolie or Beyonce or Alexandria ocasio Cortez or Cardi B or Kim kardashian or Ingrid Neilson, she is mixed of asian and Caucasian by the way, wow you never know who is mixed sometimes. I can go on and on. Again you have free will with watching porn and having sex or not and having free will to prefer what is too hot or sexy to you. You can say for instance Alexis Texas is not attractive or not your type oh she doesn’t have wrinkled soles, which actually from what I have seen she dosen’t have wrinkled soles or not the most wrinkled soles I have seen in my life, but again see everybody is different every human does not have wrinkled soles, so you say she’s not my type which is ok that is your opinion or your preference or free will. To the people who rape, just know my theory if you care to acknowledge it and if you are a fake person or rapist who is spiritual or religious you believe males are created 1st or females are based off man cause the male body or rib was used to create the female. So again the female body is a male body modified or females are not special. Contreversial stuff aside. My real friends Ashley Bernard and Tracy are sadly a victims of sexual assault. Shoutouts to Tracy aka Tracey chapman lol I call her tracy chapman by the way. But again you guys are victors not victims. Anyway it wasn’t right at all for Chris to hit Rhianna back. Nothing wrong with getting angry obviously but getting too angry can lead to this. So I like Chris brown he is not an evil piece of human garbage in this case he made an idiotic mistake a big one but I forgive him. Chris didn’t intentionally want to abuse Rhianna. I dislike people at Ubisoft who were sexually harassing , same with Activision, and Konami was abusive as well. The creator of rayman was not involved in the harassment by the way. I also dislike people like Dr Dre for beating up women, or 2pac raping a female, Phife Dawg for being an abuser as he mentions abuse in his butter song, or John Lasseter being a rapist, Louis CK being a rapist, or Kevin spacey attempting to be a gay rapist pedophile , Andrew. Tate for rape and human trafficking, r kelly for human trafficking and pedophilla. or racist people like the papa johns guy or keemstar. I can’t stand these people. I won’t support people who I don’t like obviously. But I still like a tribe called quest I just don’t like fife dawg. Just because I dislike 1 individual does not mean I dislike everybody else like a tribe called quest you get what I am saying ? I am sure you do. I just like the tribe songs without phife whatever your name is and just with q tip. Why q tip associated with somebody who is abusive is beyond me but hey that is he free will. Q tip is definitely one of the goats musicians when it comes to rap I care to say. Q tip is also underrated or not as popular as let’s say Jay-z or Biggie. I like Jay z and biggie they are goats as well. Before I knew the fact a guy online exposed tribe to me, can’t remember his name, and my uncle chuck likes tribe as well. If its a song with mostly q tip in it I will skip fife dawg. I prefer the songs with only q tip or without fife. By the way shoutouts to Brian smollon again my genuine friend he introduced me to a song champion by chipmunk featuring Chris brown. Chipmunk? I know that is a funny or weird name in a good way to me. It’s a good song if you care to engage in it. Chris brown mentions his incident with Rhianna in the song talking abut how he saw his father beat up his mom and asks if he is like his his dad? Again people have free will in life to do negative things or evil such as sexual assault. People have free will to not care about consent. Now are you evil or a piece of human garbage for let’s say scamming people? No, of course that is a negative thing but that doesn’t make you evil. You are a fake person and not my real friend obviously. What does make you evil or a piece of human garbage is abusing people or being anti-gay or sexism or racism or raping people or abusing animals or killing people etc. You wonder how these people sleep at night? Again it’s your free will to do evil. I support the lgbtqiap community of course. I am all for let’s say gay people or females or minorities having equal human rights or being an entrepreneur. Even people of color like myself can be entrepreneurs. I can be an entrepreneur if I wanted to maybe I will be one. Maybe own or create a moving company. Moving is a tough job and masculine or physically demanding. Anyway Again I did bestiality sort of and some say bestiality is a form of abuse which I disagree. If you are beating the animal up then yeah that is abuse obviously. Having sex with an animal, as messed up as it is, is not abuse it’s just having sex. Yes animals can’t give consent but it is still not abuse to me and animals lives are important but are not as important as human lives. So I say pedophilia is worse than bestiality. Bestiality with a young non adult animal like an infant is like pedophillia. But people have free will again, free will to have a pet or not, if you love your pet too much like bestiality or you just like your pet more than humans than that’s your free will. I understand because sometimes you don’t like people like fake people so you love pets more. Perhaps I will get a pet again like a cat or turtle. Scary pets like spiders or snakes I probably won’t but maybe since it is a masculine thing to do. The Human species are animals as well but not wld animals. Of course some humans are like wild animals such as evil people. It’s not surprising people do negative things like bestiality or sort of do bestiality like me because everything’s always been old school or the fact for short. Bestiality is obviously a bad weird and it’s foul and wrong but hey people have free will again. Bestiality is still illegal even though it’s not an evil thing to do it’s still a negative thing to do. So people deserve to go to prison or jail for evil things but if you get falsely accused of something like being falsely accused of rape then I feel sorry for you. People of color get thrown in prison for being falsely accused. I know gay males are victims of sexual assault or rape. But you are not a victim you are a victor. Females obviously can also be predators of f**ked up evil things like raping males or pedophillia. Saying wh**e or bi**h or sl*t or c**t are degrading words. Although if a female is rude or racist or mean or fake I will call them a b**ch etc to teach them a lesson see how it feels to be degraded or bullied taste of your own medicine. If you care to treat people the way you want to be treated golden rule then that’s your free will of course. So maybe I will adopt kids. I will raise my adopted kids with physical discipline which there is nothing wrong with that. If my kids talk when not necessary or are disrepectful I will physically discipline them and need to simply please shut up or shut the f**k up for being idiots. We are all idiots or do idiotic stuff it’s only human I care to say. Now it depends when my kids are older like 12 or so and use swear or say offensive or vulgar words to me or in front of me I won’t physically discipline see I will be a cool dad. There is a certain age you can let your say words like that. That is my free will so I won’t give them the soap in the mouth or smacking or spank when they are like 12 years old. Maybe 12 is still a little young but you know what I mean. But if my kid son or daughter is dissing me like saying dad you are a f**king b**ch ass n**ga no matter how old they are I will smack them. If they are like 6 years old yeah I will give the soap etc. I know there is no life hand book or schools don’t teach you to know how to let’s say raise your kids and again nobody is perfect but to those who physically or verbally abuse people or your kids you ought to know it’s wrong. If you are a kid for instance at a certain age you are old enough to know right from wrong. My grandpa on my dad’s side abused my dad and uncle mike physically and I am sure verbally. My grandma and grandma divorced when my dad and uncle were really young and my grandma took my aunt Nicole with her. I don’t like what my grandpa did but I still love my grandpa unconditionally because he is still my grandpa. If he wasn’t my grandpa I would not like him at all. My great grandpa on my dad’s side was abused physically and verbally I am sure as well. So it was a cycle but my dad broke the cycle. My dad has the same name as me by the way but I am not a jr. His middle name is Marshall. I will never abuse my kids or never treat them like kids when they are adults at 18. I will always look out for my kids but still not treat them like kids treat them like adults. My mom and other fake people treat me like a kid and I don't deserve that treatment. But hey people have free will with let’s say not treating your kids like adults when they grow up. I will never find them a home they are not happy with or never put them in mental hospitals when they are not mentally ill did not do anything wrong or not treat them like adults when they grow up unlike my mom who treats me like s**t. Or never keep them from seeing their grandparents or family. My mom even didn’t let me in to my grandmothers or my nana. I came there late at night which was not my fault because I got off the wrong train by mistake and I got lost. This shows my mom is terrible. My nana is 86 years old nobody is getting any younger and I simply wanted to see her. My grandpa or poppy on my mom’s side and my grandma on my dad’s side are dead. Poppy died in 2015 at 82 of health issues and Grandma died in 2016 at only in her 60’s because of cancer.
I miss real friends or family who are gone. I can’t be too hard on myself that I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact everything’s always been old school to people who are dead. For instance I would never be able to tell the fact to people who died on 9/11. I was too young only 6 years old. There is a certain age I think 7 where you learn how to understand words and sentences etc better. So I would have been able to tell or know or understand the fact by 7 years old. I just wasted my life, my youth, or time away not knowing this fact. But hey people can even have free will to waste their life or time away or not do anything with their life. Obviously I care to live a great life or do something with my life. I didn’t get chance to tell the fact to people who died from whatever. I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact to people who died from let’s say covid. I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact to my uncle kermit on my dad’s side He died in 2022 of smoking tobacco. He was like in his 70’s I think. My real friend Kimberly died in 2018 of overdose. So my mom got a Lyft for me to go back to New jersey from Pennsylvania with my ssi money and not let me see nana. She owes me money. So anyway Bringing kids in this world when everything's always been old school, is it really worth it? I know we gotta pro create to keep the human species alive, but again people have free will in life. I don’t want to bring kids in this world because It will be difficult for them to accept the fact everything’s always been old school or life is difficult. I don’t want to bring them in this world and make them miserable and they didn’t ask to be born. Nobody was asked to be born in life. Of course pro creating can bring a real or genuine person onto this earth or bring an evil or fake person on this earth like hitler for instance. People have free will to care or think about their existence. Why am I here? Why are we here? What is the purpose or meaning of life or my life? Human life is weird or mysterious. Outer space is weird or mysterious. You wonder what is out there. Deep thinking bout life, deep thoughts deep serious talk indeed. I care to say that yes you can have those questions but you still have a purpose in your life. It’s your life. There is a lot to think about life or your life. Life is difficult but try not to give up. Don’t give up. I care to say that. Everybody doesn't have to pro create or have sex. Look at asexuals, my genuine friend Charlie Wills is asexual. Like I've been saying its no surprise people have free will with let’s say to not pro create or to never kiss or never date or never have sex in your life because everything's always been old school. A lot of family members I don’t get to see often like my cousin Barbara on my mom’s side ,I don’t think I ever met you, or have never met like my older cousins on my dad’s side Tiffany and Ecaterina I have met them but I haven’t met my aunt myrtle on my mom’s side who died in 2019 I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact as well. I wish I got to see them more often and knew the fact when I was younger. But hey people eve have free will to be estranged from family or not see family often. I really would like to start seeing my family more often. So speaking of family there are pics of my family online. Real people in my family unlike my fake mom I obviously dislike my mom and fake people. Real friends are like family. We argue sometimes but we still love each other. A real friend of mine cherann I am sure she didn’t intentionally wanna hurt me or be fake lie or be mean to get me in trouble with the police. She made an idiotic mistake big time. I forgive her for it. One thing I will say is most police officers are real or genuine and not fake. So this incident happened before I knew the fact and I was bothered by police brutality of minorities or police brutality to anybody. I was 23 at the time in 2018. It dosen’t bother as much now since I know the fact. I respect that and thank you for your service. Thanks officer mike, officer Neil, officer nick Petrone, officer Jose, Officer Frank, Officer John and female officer Sgt Black of Aberdeen nj shoutouts to you, shoutouts to the Aberdeen dispatcher can’t think of your name but you know who you are, shoutouts to all real people who are police officers. Zack pittius my real friend is a police officer thanks for your service. Real friends or real people obviously lie but not lying to hurt people which that is what fake people do obviously or they take advantage of you etc. I care to be positive obviously and I again care to be real. You can’t always be positive in life obviously. Shout outs to my cousin Noah Reid for the suit and tie swag. That’s what’s up. Shoutouts to John aka the report of the week for he has suit and tie swag as well and he of course has free will to wear suit and tie all the time it’s a good weird. John also knows food is life. My suit & tie swag as well as my nike Adidas Jordan like my Adidas hat etc swag, my timex analog watch, my ear rings that I got recently, my gold chain last year in 2022, and my owl ring and purple ring in 2022. The musician drake likes owls by the way. I like Drake. Purple ring purple ring you get that reference there? I like prince. RIP Prince. I plan to get dreads as well. Hopefully I will do so much before my 28th birthday like get a job or get a vehicle. I am close to 30 and never had a job etc it’s a little embarrassing but oh well. I need to get a fancy hat and business suit case for my suit and tie swag. Noah gave me this snazzy suit which actually the brand of the suit is called cousins formal wear. What do ya know? lol So people even have free will to dress how they want to or care how you wanna look. Fashion or apparel is old school. I have free will or I care to dress this way. People have free will to say what is cool neat or not neat or cool to them or positive or not positive. People have free will to be positive. People have free will to be negative. People have free will to be neutral. Shout outs to many genuine friends but here are a few such as Brian Silva, George A. Shank, Steven Ginter, Abdul, Charlie Wills, Umarou, George Acosta, James Jackson, and Theodore Wilson aka Oz. If you care to engage in his rap music, oz trilogy, please check him out on sound cloud or whatever. If only his music were analog. I know real people like me who like to remake whatever into analog. Shoutouts to my real friend Frank Stabile aka Frank from the ymca lol I like to call him Frank from the ymca I care to be weird or funny that is a good weird. Frank has great taste in music by the way. I have known frank since I was 20 in 2015. I first heard the songs not with me and this dying soul in 2015 thanks to frank introducing me to not with me and dying soul. He likes the songs bizarre love triangle by new order, not with me by superior, this dying soul by dream theater, paradise city by guns and roses, pacific coast party by smash mouth, and butterfly by crazy town. Although sadly Frank has cancer. Frank Stabile is his full real name or he likes to go by Frank Beltane. Frank is only in his 30's like 33 or 32. I think 33. I hope you recover well Frank.