Throckmorton
Lifer
- Aug 23, 2007
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Originally posted by: njdevilsfan87
I had to get this topic back up.
I was just denied a clearance because I was in the same situation as the OP (for people wondering how, new policy for summer interns implemented two months ago)
So you know, I wasn't too worried. The general consensus from this topic, and from people I asked in real life - people were honest about it on their clearance forms, passed their drug tests, and still were granted security clearance. So I wasn't worried. Yesterday, I find out the internship I should have been starting in maybe a week or two, was no longer available to me, because I became ineligible due to admitting the use of a controlled substance within the past 12 months.
So I'm still very frustrated, and upset over this. I've been getting headaches just from thinking about it too much.
I worked my ass off in school the past year... getting a single B+ all year, with the rest As. I got my cumulative GPA in mechanical engineering up to a 3.5, putting myself in decent to position to land what I felt would have been a meaningful summer internship. Now I'm sitting here, wondering what am I going to do this summer? I don't think there is absolutely any way I could work full-time at a lame job like work in a retail store (no offense to anyone that does, but I had something a lot better lined up, and I can't help but to feel too much potential being wasted now).
My only option right now may be to work volunteer in university research, and maybe work some lame job part time to pay for commute, and allow for a bit of a pocket change to hold me over until I graduate next year.
I cannot stand the feeling of disappointment and personal failure. It's one of the worst feelings in the world to me.
Two months. Everyone before that, they were probably fine. I mean, what exactly does having experimented with pot have to do with my ability to be a useful person? I have blatant proof in my transcript that it did absolutely nothing. I cannot help but to believe that this policy just is not fair. *I did my part*. I did well in school, made good professor references. Had good work experience. I did my part.
Senior Mechanical Engineer? Doesn't matter...
Got a 4.0 last semester? Doesn't matter...
Worked DoD last summer? Doesn't matter...
This really hurts... Everything I worked for, everything that defined me... did not matter. (But it will 10 months from now...) Because I smoked pot 2 months ago.
I was actually going to shred the notice I received in the mail shortly after I received it... but I'm going to keep around as a personal reminder... not just for the obvious, but to avoid ever feeling like this again.
That's BS that they denied you the internship. Even the FBI only excludes you for marijuana use within the past 6 months.
Politics driven policy = LOSE