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So I'm a little edgy... angry... I'm pretty sure I've always been this way.
Well, stress at work was a little high, so I've been a bit edgier and angrier and this bothered some people. So I went to the doctor and he gave me a prescription for 50MG of Paxil to take daily.
I've been taking it for about four months and wasn't really aware that there was a change in myself, but did notice that my temper was more under control.
In June, I flew to Taiwan and mainland China for business and had a tendency to forget my pill on some days due to being incredibly busy and incredibly jet lagged. When I got home a week later, I crashed right into bed, again fogetting to take my Paxil.
The next day I woke up really dizzy with a tremendous headache and with shooting pains all over my body. I thought I was sick, or over tired from the trip, but it turns out that it was the Paxil because a couple hours after taking a pill, I started to feel better.
While I was in my dizzy state, I got a chance to see myself almost as if I was looking in from the outside. I think from my state of not being on Paxil, I came to realize what Paxil was doing to me. I was boring! I wasn't passionate about work, I didn't "get into" things, I agreed with everyone about everything. I was essentially an android.
I looked online and found that kicking Paxil is very difficult. The way I felt the day I got back from Asia would be the way I'd have to feel for at least a couple weeks as the Paxil leaves my system and my seratonin come back down. I went back to my doctor and told him I need to get off of this stuff. He cut my dosage in half to 25MG. That was about a month ago and this week I'm just now starting to feel more like myself.
I've had spells of dizziness and headaches like before, but not as bad. And they seem to be subsiding. I can now focus better and I'm now at a point of clarity where I can actually look back and see how miserable I was while on the 50MG dose (while I was on the dosage, I was just too out of it to know or care!). I'm scaring my coworkers a little bit because I'm snapping at people a bit more, but I'm ok with that because I now feel I can get things done since I'm more inclined to stay on top of things. In fact, I'm finding that I was, and am now again, quite a dick a lot of the time with bouts of downright arrogance and rudeness. But again, you know what? I'm ok with that. It's who I am. Take it or leave it.
But this Paxil stuff... holy crap. It's dangerous. Bad news. If you can live with having no personality and walking through life with your head in the clouds, more power to you. Me? I like to live life, good or bad, thank you very much.
Well, stress at work was a little high, so I've been a bit edgier and angrier and this bothered some people. So I went to the doctor and he gave me a prescription for 50MG of Paxil to take daily.
I've been taking it for about four months and wasn't really aware that there was a change in myself, but did notice that my temper was more under control.
In June, I flew to Taiwan and mainland China for business and had a tendency to forget my pill on some days due to being incredibly busy and incredibly jet lagged. When I got home a week later, I crashed right into bed, again fogetting to take my Paxil.
The next day I woke up really dizzy with a tremendous headache and with shooting pains all over my body. I thought I was sick, or over tired from the trip, but it turns out that it was the Paxil because a couple hours after taking a pill, I started to feel better.
While I was in my dizzy state, I got a chance to see myself almost as if I was looking in from the outside. I think from my state of not being on Paxil, I came to realize what Paxil was doing to me. I was boring! I wasn't passionate about work, I didn't "get into" things, I agreed with everyone about everything. I was essentially an android.
I looked online and found that kicking Paxil is very difficult. The way I felt the day I got back from Asia would be the way I'd have to feel for at least a couple weeks as the Paxil leaves my system and my seratonin come back down. I went back to my doctor and told him I need to get off of this stuff. He cut my dosage in half to 25MG. That was about a month ago and this week I'm just now starting to feel more like myself.
I've had spells of dizziness and headaches like before, but not as bad. And they seem to be subsiding. I can now focus better and I'm now at a point of clarity where I can actually look back and see how miserable I was while on the 50MG dose (while I was on the dosage, I was just too out of it to know or care!). I'm scaring my coworkers a little bit because I'm snapping at people a bit more, but I'm ok with that because I now feel I can get things done since I'm more inclined to stay on top of things. In fact, I'm finding that I was, and am now again, quite a dick a lot of the time with bouts of downright arrogance and rudeness. But again, you know what? I'm ok with that. It's who I am. Take it or leave it.
But this Paxil stuff... holy crap. It's dangerous. Bad news. If you can live with having no personality and walking through life with your head in the clouds, more power to you. Me? I like to live life, good or bad, thank you very much.
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