I've read a few posts of this dude's here and there, but this is the first one I've read all the way through.
All I can say is WOW!
It's quite obvious that he has no desire to improve his life at all. As another poster pointed out, it's much easier to complain and get sympathy than to actually improve your life.
The problem is NOT your looks. You're not Brad Pitt, but you're also not disgusting. Clearly, you have emotional issues that cause you to see yourself differently than everyone else does. It's kinda like 90 lb anorexic girls who think they're fat. The truth is that you're a normal, average, kinda geeky looking guy and plenty of geeky guys have been able to find women who like them.
Guys with model looks can get women no matter what their personality is like. Guys who don't have those same looks need to have something else going for them.
Your problem is that you don't have the model looks, but you also don't have the personality, confidence, and attitude to attract women. You bitch about not being able to change your looks, but you can certainly change the rest of that stuff and if you were to actually do that, you would have no problem meeting a woman who was attracted to you for those reasons. Your problem is that you aren't willing to give a woman a chance unless you find her immediately physically attractive. And if you are not willing to give them a chance, they won't give you a chance.
Bottom line is that you can improve your life if you want, but you're probably going to have to seek professional help. Based on what I've read from you, you'd actually prefer to be miserable and wallow in self-pity instead of doing something that requires work.