Originally posted by: KarenMarie
The b/f has had a dog for almost 17yrs. And the arthritus in the dog's back is so bad that she can longer use her legs. His mother called last night and she cannot walk or anything. So, he took the dog to the vet today to have her put to sleep. She has been in pain for quite a while and it is time.
He just called me.. he took her to the park for a special lunch. She is laying in the grass with him and he was on the phone crying his eyes out. He says she knows. And she is ready.
I could not go with him. The thought of what is happening has me sitting here, crying to the point where I can hardly breathe. But I just cannot be there, to take this pet to the vet for this. I do not have it in me to do this. I will comfort the b/f and cry with him when he gets home, but I cannot sit in the jeep looking at the dog, knowing where she is going.
I feel really guilty about not being able to go and I hate myself for it, but just cannot do it. The b/f is a big tough guy, and hearing him cry on the phone makes me so fvcked up, i ... i cannot find the words for it.
I am a horrible g/f.
Update
I went to go to the vet's office... just to sit in the waiting room. Just to be there for the b/f, ya know?
so I left the house and went to get in my car, and he called my name. He was sitting in the jeep, in the parking lot across the street. He knew where I was going and said thanks and that he loved me, but he did not want me there... ONLY because he did not want to put me thru that.
He went to his mom's house to get her. he had to bathe her first... since she cannot walk or move her hind legs, she was ... she needed to be bathed first. I dont know what it takes of a person to do this... to bathe a dog for the last time. To have her trusting eyes look up at him while he washed her, knowing where he was taking her. That is a strength that I could never find within myself.
So, he took her to the park and loved her for a while. He said that she knew this would be her last day. He said that he believes that she was ready. She has been in pain for some time and was ready to go.
He was kissing her and talking to her while she went. He said it was very quick since she was really ready for this. He came home and sat in the jeep for a few minutes to collect himself so he did not have to come in as a wreck and upset me. Again, this type of strength escapes me.
Now he is gone to see his mom. She is a big softy and was devistated by this. And since they raised this dog together, he wants to go see her alone and not have her embarrassed by falling to pieces by anyone else.
for Casey!
and :heart: for the b/f!
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