How many of you have seriously contemplated suicide?

[Isla]

AoD

Man, where you when I was 16? Oh yeah, in another country... and probably about 5 years old!

 

[Ulfwald]

In 1995, I got shot through the hand in an on the job accident. (Working high risk security). My left hand was paralyzed for many months. I thought that i was going to be disabled, and I could no longer pursue my dream of working in law enforcement. I was taking pain killers, and one day after an extremely bad physical therapy session, I took a couple too many, not enough to kill me, but enough to allow my anger and depression to get the best of me. I went to my gun locker and pulled out my 9 mm, loaded it and then sat in the middle of my girlfriends apartment and gathered the courage to pull the trigger. That is when my dog, Chance came over and looked into my eyes, (the first time he has ever been able to look a human in the face since I rescued him) and placed his paw on my hand with the gun. I know all he wanted was to be petted, but at that time it, to me, it meant that I was actually wanted here on this earth.

I locked the gun away and then drove to my synagogue. I had a long talk with my rabbi, and that is when I re affirmed my union with God and Jesus. By the time christmas came around, my hand was working about 50%. Now, every day I thank God for keeping here, and my hand is at 95%. Good enough to make a living as a computer tech/network admin. I will never have the strength to arrest some one, but then again, keyboards don't fight back.

 

[Demon-Xanth]

I've never really told anyone since 6th grade. But every so often it looks so good. Even though I'm out of collage and into the real world, my mind still haunts me with that thought way too often.

 

[stilinsm]

A good friend of mine put a .38 in his mouth this past New Years eve. The guy had everything, a beautiful wife, 6 yr old son, 80k yr job. I rung in the new Millenium by cleaning his blood out of the carpet. No one saw it coming. It still haunts me 9 months later. I guess what I'm trying to say is that suicide effects everyone in your life. If your having these thoughts you need to seek help NOW.

 

[Frenchie]

stilinsm:

Good advice. My fiancee's brother committed suicide a year ago this month. The effect that it has had (and will continue to have for years to come) is unbelievable.

 

[AngelOfDeath]

<< Man, where you when I was 16? Oh yeah, in another country... and probably about 5 years old! >>

He that was some very nice words

AoD

 

[urbantechie]

Yea. I had a friend who hung himself. I saw him the day before and he seemed so happy. I don't know what went wrong . I've thought of it many times. Presure from parents, school etc. I'm always feeling down and depressed after a day at school. The only thing that cheers me up is my best friend and some of my girlfriends (not &quot;girlfriends&quot.


And I always feel like I want to jump off a building. This summer I was at Tampa Airport and we were on the top of the parking structure. It was almost as high as the control tower. I felt I could just step on the ledge and fall off.