I am going to tell you what this is and you are not going to believe it:
We all hate ourselves and that self hate is hidden and deeply buried. We were psychically murdered as children and we long to return to our original health. We want to feel what killed us so we can be reborn, but because our deaths were so painful we don't want to remember either.
Thus it is we are driven to feel what we felt, ho worthless we really feel, but we are afraid to because of the pain. We are doomed and we are trapped, so what do we do with our inexorable need and or terrible fear? What we do is to back in to our trauma and destroy our lives, driven at once by the need to deny and to feel.
And the greater we become in life without understanding what we feel, the more the need to prove our worthlessness becomes. The General had an affair so he could prove the truth of his feelings, that he's a worthless piece of shit. It's the feeling he was driven to feel so he could become real again, but until he feels what he really feels with memory of childhood events, he can't heal the real damage. He can only feel shame vicariously. Pity him for he has destroyed himself out of ignorance. We do not know, we do not know we don't want to know, and we do not know we do not want to know.
So sad and you will not see this either.