My advise, worthless as I know it is, would be to relax. I think the way you see the world is right, but it is limited. As a conservative you have moral concerns that are much stronger in certain areas than is the case for liberals and respect for authority is one of them. The whole point and evolutionary benefits that the human use of language and verbal and later written communication brought to the table was to be able to transmit living experience of elders to their children, to teach them survival skills. This was such a profound evolutionary advantage to our ancestors that it lead to a genetically inheritable tendency to codify respect for elders into our culture and even our genes. People who respect authority survive and those who don't don't always survive their real life lessons.
So this innate genetic wisdom, respect for elders, respect for authority, respect for parents, respect for culture is a survival adaption to defeat Darwin, if you will.
Liberals, of course, by the same wisdom of lived experience, discovered they can be manipulated by a demand of respect. They realized that respect has to be warranted rather that being just mechanically deferential. Without liberal thinking we would all be lemmings and follow some mad man off a cliff into the sea. Liberals that reject authority out of constant experience of being told to live by terrible advise can fall prey to pooping on authority that is truly authoritative and deservedly.
So I would say appreciate the fact that you hold moral concerns of great value and try to learn from liberals who are quicker to spot fakes. In this way your moral values will not be compromised and their precision in terms of applicability will sharpen. The potential for bad police who abuse their authority does not and should not affect the fact that it's not a good idea to reject all authority. Liberals who tell you otherwise are nuts but so many of them here, that is not what they are saying. Note too, that as you fear a world that has rejected real authority and are fierce in defending it, so too are liberals terrified of a world full of lemmings. They too, out of the same feeling, actually the constriction of feeling, they too can get pretty mean. So, not the left or the right but a third way. Propaganda and ego identifications make knowing who deserves respect and who does not a difficult issue.
Saying conservatives have more respect for the law than a liberal is 100% bullshit. Conservatives are the ones who flaunt the law when it suits them.
Ask Gym Jordan and Kevin McCarthy, who refused to comply with a subpoena.
Ask those who say the constitution is the highest law of the land, yet ignore it when it suits them, such as in the separation of church and state.
Ask Trump who has committed numerous crimes, but conservatives support him, so they can "own da libs". Or when Donald Trump has actively ignored legal proceedings in an effort to beat the numerous court cases against him.
Ask Trump where he got some of the money for his wall that Mexico was going to pay for. And when you find out where he got the money, ask our military personnel how they feel about Trump diverting $3.8 billion that was supposed to go to them.
Ask Trump about his 2021 budget plan that would have cut funding to police. Yeah, the people bitching about democrats trying to defund the police were the real shit heads trying to defund the police. Go figure.
Ask Marjorie Taylor Green, who is on record as saying she will not support any bills that does not cut funding to the DOJ and the FBI.
Ask Kevin McCarthy whose budget requests during the recent debt limit negotiations would have meant a 22% cut to law enforcement funding. Biden's plan would have increased funding for the DOJ, FBI, ATF, and US Marshals Service.
Conservatives say they respect the law, but it's all bullshit. They only care about jamming their views down the throats of anyone and everyone.
Women's rights? Sure, but only if it follows their Christian views. Screw actual women's rights.
Minority rights? Sure, but only behind whites. And they will use gerrymandering and other dirty tricks to make sure it stays that way.
Religions freedom? Sure, but only if the religion is Christianity.
Anyone who claims conservatives are somehow more upstanding citizens or have higher morals is spouting 100% bullshit.