The point is that if you ate a normal diet you wouldnt need to count how many peanuts you ate each day!
Look at the facts.
You are extremely underweight.
You obsesses over what you eat.
You exhibit bizarre behaviour towards food (like swallowing it whole).
You have a weird disconnect between your behaviour and the harm it does you.
I mean its totally your life but what you are doing is not normal or healthy. Or fun.
The counting was to see how much actually gets eaten rather than restrict what gets eaten. I had eaten pasta earlier last night and I wanted to observe what it took to reach satiation when a starchy meal was eaten hours earlier. I've said it, I have no restricts regarding satiation. You, having probably heard the 100th bulimic and anorexic testimonial, think that I counted to restrict consumption. Anorexics want thinness. I don't care. Bulimics the same. I don't care about that. Orthorexics got some weird food purity stuff. There is nothing to be gained from chasing "purity". Only thing that matters to me...is effectiveness and dealing with actual practical physical matters at hand. Bacterial infections in gums are not good. Being vitamin deficient isn't good either. Having lousy tissue and immune system, not good. Inflammation that is unnecessary, not good. Tried going only meat and vegetables; too hard to maintain. This recent change was in response to the failure to eat only meat and vegetables solid food-wise as I wound up binging starches and sweets.
Getting an abscess this spring and the most recently, a filling despite a much more thorough brushing and care routine indicates further solutions and modifications had to be engineered to make such efforts worthwhile and effective.
The only reason I'm underweight is lack of muscular strength training and biological tuning. I've metabolized stuff very fast regardless of what I consumed; the only way I will be able to gain weight is through increasing muscle mass. I never liked the Twinkie grade of food, but even when I ate whatever I wanted besides that(Gatorade or Muscle Milk level of quality), which included quite a few starch-based meals, I still could not gain weight through fattening even with a sedentary lifestyle, and that's 33 years worth of eating. That's how good my metabolism was even though I only had no restrictions from eating to satiation. I ate fried chicken, pasta, bacon, wontons, ground beef, fruit juice, Gatorade, Muscle Milk, almond milk to name a few things, and no weight gain even back then.
It's not a obsession. I simply make note of what gets eaten and what amount. The equivalent of logging in a diary. Time spent searching for foods is only dedicated to determining what ingredients are beneficial and what are not. I'm reeling in much wider vitamin profile than I have at any point, even 6 months ago. At some point the exploration phase will simply no longer be needed as a sufficient variety of foods and practices will be enough to achieve the goals I want.
The foods simply have to meet conditions. Number one is limited damage to teeth. Number two is to get the immune system better prepared because I got COVID this March(no hospitalization) and then some other long-term respiratory ailment this August. Three, it must contribute to general improvement of health.
I did not care about food that much from birth till this spring. First thing was a dental abscess. Next was a scummy dentist who basically made $150 on an X-Ray and tried to sell a fucking root canal+crown when I felt no pain in the teeth and it was the gum that was swollen. The diet from spring until Sept this year failed because my body's ancestry has basically tuned it to want starches and thus going only meat and vegetables resulted in binging garbage like cakes and éclairs, stuff I usually did not like during the "freedom" I had for 33 years to eat whatever; no logging was done until after Sept 28. This most recent phase came with the acceptance that going sweet-free is not a possibility for me but if I must have them, then they'll only be the healthiest sweets, which leads to the consumption of berries. I had to take initiative for myself because no one suggested a Waterpik, I came across out of pure self-interest to avoid another major abscess and to never let myself line the pockets of a dentist even through Medicaid. And general health since the bacterial infection of the gums will have a tougher time affecting the whole body if they are not allowed to grow in the first place.
Swallowing foods whole applies only to items that contain sucrose or maltose. It's to limit contact with the gumline and teeth due to the need to balance dealing with periodontitis while being a natural starch and sweet craver. Your accusation of bizarre has no rational basis, just feelings. I'll chew meat, the green vegetables like celery or lettuce, and even bit on a blackberry.
But I still consume foods rather than go the orthorexic route and reject them entirely. Pragmatism trumps ideals and sometimes I need the boost(Currently being on antibiotics also gives a sense of security).
Also, I believe that I'm trending up rather than down health-wise. Increasing the intake of antioxidants, having a consistent intake of calcium, and complete and wide intake of vitamins and minerals through plant and animal sources. Sticking to whole foods.
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