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JM Aggie08

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Jan 3, 2006
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Originally posted by: fuzzybabybunny
I guess I'll go:

I'm not sure what to say now. I had something but thinking about it made it go away. Why do I always feel like shit? Life is so finite and it is passing too quickly and I'm going to die before I know it and I've already wasted so much time and passed up so many opportunities and I have so much to catch up on like having lots of sex and I wish I could just let loose but I just can't and it's too scary and uncharacteristic of me and I don't like the fact that I'm letting go of my control but I don't really have any control of anything and I feel this big gaping hole in my soul and I want so bad for some girl to just love me and to want to be with me and find me desirable and I want to make all this money so that I can just say fuck you to my parents and pay them off and say that I no longer owe them anything and assert my independence and realize that I can finally support myself and maybe when I have money people will start to love me but I know this isn't really true but what are we going to do Mousey? It's just me and you against the world. Just me and a little baby innocent mousey who doesn't want to hurt anyone and I want someone to hold onto so bad because I don't want to sleep by myself anymore because the nights by myself are always the saddest, loneliest time for me and it's always so hard to bear and I don't like crying so much but I hate myself for crying because other people are in much worse situations than I am and I'm a pampered jackass who has no right to feel bad and I want to hold onto Bunny right now but I know that she's not real and she doesn't really love me but i just need to feel loved so bad and all I want to do is hold onto that girl's hand and tell her I love her and then she can tell me that she loves me and I'll be so happy but I know none of it's true and I hate this feeling of reality just sitting here alone in the dark typing and wasting away my life. I need to get out of here and I want so bad to just transform into the perfect definition of a man and I wish I had never been born into this world and I wish I could be more outgoing like my friend Elliot. I really want to talk to that girl I met in the hospital and hear her voice and somehow drive over to Michigan so that we can talk together in a coffee shop and maybe she will love me because she sounds like such a sweet girl and I can tell her about all the places I've been and I can hold her and she can hold me but I know that'll never happen because I'm a sick creeper like everyone says and I should just change who I am as a person because who I am is just wrong. It's a wrong fundamental answer just like 2+2=5 and I want her to hang out with me every single day so that I can hold her and have someone to share the stars with on that sand dune I wish so bad I had someone to share the stars with on that sand dune but I'm a complete reject who can't even get my penis up like a real man should be able to because I'm such a fucking failure and no one loves me except my parents but I hate them for what they made me into but I still love them and don't know what to do when they get older and need my care or when they're about to die.

wow that's fucked up...


Step 1: Lose bun bun
 

IGBT

Lifer
Jul 16, 2001
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..wondering if gelled ethanol is a good replacement for wood in a wood stove.
 

olds

Elite Member
Mar 3, 2000
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I am thinking that if I was still a Mod JM Aggie08 would be gone for a week.
 

secretanchitman

Diamond Member
Apr 11, 2001
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i dont want to start school tomorrow...8am-11am classes monday, wednesday, friday. also when is apple going to finish replacing the defective superdrive in my dads macbook pro (probably in 1-2 days) and im sure it'll happen again because its been 3 times already.
 

dawp

Lifer
Jul 2, 2005
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Why the hell did my xgf have to call and basically say she made a mistake when she decided to leave.
 

Godsend1

Senior member
Oct 30, 2000
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I need to get the shims for the valves on my Vmax(motorcycle) so I can finish adjusting the clearance, then I can start rebuilding/upgrading the forks, then I can check/set the float levels on the carbs, then I can rebuild the clutch slave cyl,then I can put it all back together and start riding it again!
 
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You know fuzzy, I always thought you were kind of a troll and I've given you a hard time occasionally, but I think I saw a lot of sincerity in that post. You sound depressed and it makes me sad because even though you're a bit strange you're a genuinely nice bloke. If you need a chat feel free to whip me a PM, I've been down that road of depression and it's a difficult one to get off of. Even if you just wanna shoot the shit about photography or whatever. Good luck :thumbsup: (note: I'm a dude, please don't try to put the moves on me ;))
 

Mo0o

Lifer
Jul 31, 2001
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i need to finish this god damn research by the end of teh week but I"m really dragging my feet. god damn it i have a quiz on tuesday. i should sleep soon if i want to wake up early enough to get to the driving range. hmm when should i go to the gym. might not have time afterwards. but i dont want to do it before either... too many choices.
 

irishScott

Lifer
Oct 10, 2006
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The best people make most of their own luck. Living with the confidence that you can deal with anything unexpected, that no matter what you will always come out on top until you die of old age, is seemingly cocky and unrealistic. However, it allows for a calmer state of mind under pressure, and I've found that negative stress is greatly reduced with this attitude. This frees the mind to more constructive/compensatory thought, and in many ways becomes a pseudo-self-fulfilling prophecy. However, it is not just a matter of thinking this way. It is a matter of proving it. In many cases it requires extreme trials, but is this really that bad? The true Elites in any field, no matter how genetically anomalous they may (or may not) be, worked hard to get to where they are today. They all endured challenges. They all put much effort into their field of elitism.

The belief described is not to be misconstrued as the relatively stupid "I am invincible" thought. It is simply the acknowledgment of a level of skill and know-how that, when faced with a challenge, you will always overcome until you die of unrelated causes. There are always objective, logical odds, but what of the subjective? There's a reason medics tell their patients "you're going to be alright", even if it's the furthest from the truth. Science has proven that the subjective psychological effect is extremely potent. Even the most illogical of beliefs can often contribute to the best possible outcome.

But the objective odds cannot be ignored. If you run in front of a man with an AK-47, and he puts 10 rounds into the air around you, how do you avoid getting hit? The answer lies in the development of judgment. Not just conscious, logical judgment, but the ability to subconsciously judge and act without even realizing it. Your brain senses far more than the conscious. With development, you may subconsciously decide to run earlier or later, and thus offset if not avoid the objective odds altogether. Likewise you may subconsciously see another route or method of distracting the shooter and accomplish the same.

Thus, as one becomes more elite, the objective odds are greatly diminished in their decisiveness. But what about that which we cannot control? Easily (if not already) answered. To beat the objective odds, you don't control your surroundings, you control your reaction to your surroundings. The objective odds and that which we cannot control will always play a role, the idea is to diminish that role.

Thus we enter the stereotype of "living on the edge". This means different things to different people in the fine print, but in general it means taking risks with seemingly no regard for the consequences. Also known as recklessness or rashness. But if you are good enough, then these "risks" are really not as big as they may seem to non-elites. However, anyone can become an elite if they care enough. It doesn't take a "special person", it just takes effort and a willingness to change. Most people it seems appear to value safety over skill. Stability over adaptation. Stagnation over change. Routine over spontaneity. These people are the ones who hide in a room and call the cops when their house is being robbed, as opposed to the elite who would engage or otherwise actively negate the threat of the robber. Of course, if you are not, say, combat trained or armed, than engaging is a stupid course of action and locking the door and calling the cops is the right call.

That being said, if being an elite greatly increases your chances of averting the robbery, than why not be one? You can apply this same principle to almost every field. Thus we enter the realm of the renaissance man. Jack of all and master of none is a misnomer. It is perfectly possible to be jack of all and master of one or more, although we are all human, and thus our abilities are naturally limited to a relatively small number of masteries. If knowing as much as possible/being a renaissance man will reduce the effect of objective odds, and ultimately give you more control over your life, while still allowing for excitement and negating negative stress, why not become one? To quote TFNN, "learn all that is learnable, know all that is knowable". Why not be interested in everything? You may not be an elite in every field, but you can be "good" at most others, and thus as near to universally elite as a human can be. You can do things that others call reckless, and they may call you immature and other mean words for it, but in fact you just did something they couldn't do. They can't understand it because they've limited themselves instead of discovering their limits.

And to truly discover your limits you must undergo stress. You must break and pull yourself back from the brink. Knowing one's limits is like a mathematical limit. You don't know the exact value, but you can get pretty damn close. Only then do you have some idea of what you're capable of. However, limits are not static. They can be changed. Like muscle. When it is torn it heals and becomes stronger, given adequate nutrition. The trick is, once again, judgment and a willingness to change and become stronger for it.

That judgment also overlaps into the conscious. You must know when you are a beginner; and you will make mistakes. It is how learning generally works. You must take risks and make mistakes. You must embarrass yourself, and if you truly believe that you will overcome no matter what, you will not be intimidated. You will laugh it off and excel, while those with a more logical sense of the objective odds will shy away in the name of security. They may become elite some day, but they'll have to change first. They'll have to learn to consider the subjective odds. They'll have to have enough confidence to kindle those subjective odds, and they'll have to learn to just take it easy.

Fast and steady wins the race. Slow and steady comes in second. You just have to get fast.

Edit: Edited for spelling.
 

dud

Diamond Member
Feb 18, 2001
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I'm thinking how I am going to get through the day. I have two 3-hour flights with a layover in-between and then I have to drive across Phoenix to attend a meeting.

It's going to be a LONG day ...
 

DangerAardvark

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Oct 22, 2004
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"I'll send you a lover letter! Straight from my heart, fucker! You know what a love letter is? It's a bullet from a fucking gun, fucker! You receive a love letter from me, and you're fucked forever! You understand, fuck? I'll send you straight to hell, fucker!"
 

olds

Elite Member
Mar 3, 2000
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Originally posted by: DangerAardvark
"I'll send you a lover letter! Straight from my heart, fucker! You know what a love letter is? It's a bullet from a fucking gun, fucker! You receive a love letter from me, and you're fucked forever! You understand, fuck? I'll send you straight to hell, fucker!"

Meds. Get on them.

 

moshquerade

No Lifer
Nov 1, 2001
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Right now I am thinking... how is calling someone who is from Pakistan a beloved patriot considered rude or racist? It's just a shortening of the word...

I guess it's like calling someone from Japan a Jap? Geesh.
 

sao123

Lifer
May 27, 2002
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Right now, im debating the best strategy for the first 2 rounds of agricola....
should i:

build a pasteur and start taking sheep and try to get the fireplace card...
or should i plow fields, plant wheat, and just take food from the fishing spot.
or should i begin adding a third room, how early is too early to secure your third token?
 

Casawi

Platinum Member
Oct 31, 2004
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is it really another week, why this damn winter why? ... I wonder what are the consequences for not doing my homework.
 

DangerAardvark

Diamond Member
Oct 22, 2004
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Originally posted by: oldsmoboat
Originally posted by: DangerAardvark
"I'll send you a lover letter! Straight from my heart, fucker! You know what a love letter is? It's a bullet from a fucking gun, fucker! You receive a love letter from me, and you're fucked forever! You understand, fuck? I'll send you straight to hell, fucker!"

Meds. Get on them.

Blue Velvet. Watch it. Dennis Hopper FTW.
 

Linflas

Lifer
Jan 30, 2001
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I am marveling over a laptop I received back from HP repaired and the printout they attached to it saying they couldn't duplicate my issue and were returning it unrepaired and were charging me a nominal "evaluataion fee".
 

DainBramaged

Lifer
Jun 19, 2003
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How am I going to do this? This is going to suck. Fuck, I wish there was some other way. No, this really is going to suck. PLEASE GOD, MAKE IT NOT HURT!!!
 

SagaLore

Elite Member
Dec 18, 2001
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Originally posted by: moshquerade
Right now I am thinking... how is calling someone who is from Pakistan a beloved patriot considered rude or racist? It's just a shortening of the word...

I guess it's like calling someone from Japan a Jap? Geesh.

I have a Pakistani friend who has called herself and other Pakis before. I think that "rudeness" labeling is coming from non-beloved patriot PC liberals. :p
 

BoomerD

No Lifer
Feb 26, 2006
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Originally posted by: sao123
Right now, im debating the best strategy for the first 2 rounds of agricola....
should i:

build a pasteur and start taking sheep and try to get the fireplace card...
or should i plow fields, plant wheat, and just take food from the fishing spot.
or should i begin adding a third room, how early is too early to secure your third token?

Louis or Marie?