JM Aggie08
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Originally posted by: fuzzybabybunny
I guess I'll go:
I'm not sure what to say now. I had something but thinking about it made it go away. Why do I always feel like shit? Life is so finite and it is passing too quickly and I'm going to die before I know it and I've already wasted so much time and passed up so many opportunities and I have so much to catch up on like having lots of sex and I wish I could just let loose but I just can't and it's too scary and uncharacteristic of me and I don't like the fact that I'm letting go of my control but I don't really have any control of anything and I feel this big gaping hole in my soul and I want so bad for some girl to just love me and to want to be with me and find me desirable and I want to make all this money so that I can just say fuck you to my parents and pay them off and say that I no longer owe them anything and assert my independence and realize that I can finally support myself and maybe when I have money people will start to love me but I know this isn't really true but what are we going to do Mousey? It's just me and you against the world. Just me and a little baby innocent mousey who doesn't want to hurt anyone and I want someone to hold onto so bad because I don't want to sleep by myself anymore because the nights by myself are always the saddest, loneliest time for me and it's always so hard to bear and I don't like crying so much but I hate myself for crying because other people are in much worse situations than I am and I'm a pampered jackass who has no right to feel bad and I want to hold onto Bunny right now but I know that she's not real and she doesn't really love me but i just need to feel loved so bad and all I want to do is hold onto that girl's hand and tell her I love her and then she can tell me that she loves me and I'll be so happy but I know none of it's true and I hate this feeling of reality just sitting here alone in the dark typing and wasting away my life. I need to get out of here and I want so bad to just transform into the perfect definition of a man and I wish I had never been born into this world and I wish I could be more outgoing like my friend Elliot. I really want to talk to that girl I met in the hospital and hear her voice and somehow drive over to Michigan so that we can talk together in a coffee shop and maybe she will love me because she sounds like such a sweet girl and I can tell her about all the places I've been and I can hold her and she can hold me but I know that'll never happen because I'm a sick creeper like everyone says and I should just change who I am as a person because who I am is just wrong. It's a wrong fundamental answer just like 2+2=5 and I want her to hang out with me every single day so that I can hold her and have someone to share the stars with on that sand dune I wish so bad I had someone to share the stars with on that sand dune but I'm a complete reject who can't even get my penis up like a real man should be able to because I'm such a fucking failure and no one loves me except my parents but I hate them for what they made me into but I still love them and don't know what to do when they get older and need my care or when they're about to die.
wow that's fucked up...
Step 1: Lose bun bun
