Why? You’re here with the misunderstanding that you have seen and understand and would recognize and are capable of evaluating every argument made in the last 5000 years and I am saying that you are a sleepwalking machine based simply on a flash if intuitive integration I had years and years ago that turned me inside out and upside down, ending at that instant my capacity for existential suffering, for which words like dying and being reborn, or awakening from sleep, or entering a state of being, or defeating the nothing and many other things hint at just that ineffable something and thus seem right to me.
I only suggested that you are not aware of what you feel and that as a result are unaware of what motivates you, and further that what you really feel is that you are the worst person in the world, which, going back on my promise to tell you nothing further without you paying me, is the source of your need to externalize those feelings and hold them at arms length, keep them out of conscious awareness, by projecting them out there on the worst generation on whom you can now justify dumping that hate.
Are you possessed by demons, did you have a moment when you weren’t yourself, have you undergone psychotherapy, been to a rave, had a trip? This understanding there is something out there threatening to take us over, the dragons we used to place in the unknowns on ancient maps all speak to this as well as endless stories and myths like the ugly duckling, Snow White, Jason and the Golden Fleece, and other heroes’ journeys to defeat that thing.
You have to believe in free will in order for you to attribute blame to others in order to justify your hate for them, in order, in turn, not to feel the real object of that hate, your self, and you will not see it because you in your heart of hearts, meaning at an unconscious level of feeling that is what you believe is true. And all your defensiveness here toward me is the result of the feeling that it is I who wants you to feel that way.
But no, it isn’t I who wants you to feel that way but I who knows you already do and because of your denial you are not fully alive. So friend, wake up if you can or file it away. You can’t make yourself wake up because the you you call you is the sleeper. But the seeking and accumulation of understanding cap put you out on a road that increases the chance you can get run down by Grace. Sweet sweet surrender.