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[TridenT]

I'm all gettin' emo again(Was I ever not? :awe. I failed life, for the nth time. One would think that I would get numb to the feeling of failure because I have experienced it endlessly, but this, I do not.

Starting to think again. Trying to think in my head how I can fix things. It never really leads to anywhere that I want... I keep trying to think of fixes, but the fixes are always things that should of have never happened or should have happened a bit differently. The fixes are almost always things to do in the past. It seems more plausible to invent a time machine than it is to try to prevent future misfortunes. It seems that I cannot repair this broken machine, but only wish that it was never on the path to destruction after already been broken.

I don't ever really see these things coming though. I have hopes, and then they get crushed and then it's bad. I'm too optimistic even for a pessimist.

Lalala... If you want to know what happened basically this: First day of summer term. I go to my Calculus I class(It's a quarter school) and I don't remember anything we're supposed to know already. I forgot logs, ln, e^x, wtf an intercept even is(I know now, but I was like, "ugh, I forgot all the lingo too"), and tons of other shit like how to find domain and range and how to do shit with radicals. So I have decided that I am going to drop the class and my other class(that class was actually going good, but I have to drop it too if I drop my calc class because of full-time requirements).

New plan is to do more research on fitness and workout routines, then go to my college fitness center every weekday and lift weights. I don't know if I'll even follow through with it because I just get hopelessly depressed on it all. It feels like I'll never gain weight, get stronger, meet ladies, or become anything successful in my imagination. I don't even have a strong definition of what is successful except being happy and satisfied. I think I am going to keep failing that forever. Life was predetermined in someways by my genetics and hormones. Maybe you can see why I can never see solutions for the future except maybe radical gene therapy when all comes back to that lack of satisfaction with this body and the results it derives.

And some cute red head girl is on my mind, but she's too young and I never know what people are thinking. I think that's the real problem.

Edit: When I said meet ladies I meant meet ladies and actually go out on dates and possibly get laid once in a while even. So far, I meet them and then they run away screaming froot loops. I don't know what I am doing wrong. I think it's just how I look.

 

[sandorski]

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Sorry to hear of your troubles, can't you just do a quick review at home and carry on with the Class?

 

[TridenT]

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Sorry to hear of your troubles, can't you just do a quick review at home and carry on with the Class?

Not really. The class is too fast paced to review all this shit and get it solidly down. I'm going to just retake trig and college algebra at my current school before I take Calculus I. I may as well get the concepts down. It'll screw up things a bit, but I was never going to graduate on time anyway... It'll probably end up being like I was in college for 7 years for a bachelor's instead of the 6 it's going to already be.

Whatever... I'm different and less of a person because I have had different obstacles in my life that I have found more troublesome to overcome than others.

 

[Taejin]

remember guys, ignore the troll and he'll go away =)

 

[deadlyapp]

You need to stick with it longer. Every single effing class I"ve taken I've felt useless for the first week or so. Get a tutor, go to office hours, you are clearly not taking any initiative and taking the easy way out.

You're just like my good friend who can't decide what to do and is always changing his mind and unhappy with his situation. You need to fucking lock down and actually try for once instead of going "oh, that's not for me"

 

[Murloc]

lol?

when I begin a new year I have forgotten all that simple shit too, but I don't give up.
Revise instead of losing time whining about failing at life on a forum.
If you repeat the older classes you will forget logs again and be over.

don't think, just survive.

 

[JJChicken]

Keep ya head up Tman, you are doing well. Your posting style has improved here so don't back to your annoying, emo self.

Re girls - you have joined college, just be social and keep trying. You will succeed I didn't do that at college, so don't make the mistake I did. At all times try to be social. But don't let your studies fall behind.

Re studies - form a study group? I'm sure there's other in similar situations. Ask the lecturer if he has any tips. Just try your best ~ The first semester is usually the hardest, and most people only get passes so don't fret too much BUT make sure you keep studying hard throughout - your career depends on your grades.

 

[moshquerade]

This thread belongs in L&R.

Also, stop feeling sorry for yourself.

 

[alkemyst]

have some froot loops kid, it will be all right.

 

[Lamont Burns]

beat off, take a shower, have a beer, relax.

 

[mfenn]

Not really. The class is too fast paced to review all this shit and get it solidly down. I'm going to just retake trig and college algebra at my current school before I take Calculus I. I may as well get the concepts down. It'll screw up things a bit, but I was never going to graduate on time anyway... It'll probably end up being like I was in college for 7 years for a bachelor's instead of the 6 it's going to already be.

Whatever... I'm different and less of a person because I have had different obstacles in my life that I have found more troublesome to overcome than others.

WTFlyingF??????

Who intends to take 6 years for a BA/BS?

 

[mrjminer]

Pics? If you look like a monster, I'm sure everyone will tell you so you'll at least know if it's your looks.

 

[mfenn]

Pics? If you look like a monster, I'm sure everyone will tell you so you'll at least know if it's your looks.

 

[Lamont Burns]

gain some weight, go out in the sun

 

[geecee]

Buck/man up. Don't drop yet. Someone posted this site a few weeks ago:

http://www.khanacademy.org

Review there in 10min increments.

 

[Bignate603]

Not really. The class is too fast paced to review all this shit and get it solidly down. I'm going to just retake trig and college algebra at my current school before I take Calculus I. I may as well get the concepts down. It'll screw up things a bit, but I was never going to graduate on time anyway... It'll probably end up being like I was in college for 7 years for a bachelor's instead of the 6 it's going to already be.

Whatever... I'm different and less of a person because I have had different obstacles in my life that I have found more troublesome to overcome than others.

lolwut?

Suck it up and stop being a whiner. Unless you're working and only doing school part time there's no excuse for taking 6 years for a bachelor's degree. If you can't learn to work hard enough to do what you need to get done you'll never be able to actually graduate or hold a real job.

 

[CraigRT]

This thread belongs in L&R.

Also, stop feeling sorry for yourself.

Word..... Just live your life, shit will pick up.. I hate a lot of aspects of my life but you'd never know it if you were in my presence... I am still upbeat and happy most of the time, but being annoyed with things will never go away 100% in the back of your head.

You need to worry about things that matter like school, health, etc, and stop worrying about women. I don't put any thought into it at all. Somehow, you still end up finding someone in the end, and you weren't actively trying.

 

[mrjminer]

Don't wear the following except outside in the winter: beanies, gloves.

IMO, you should grow your hair out. I think you'd find ladies would dig you more. Also, you need to stop acting like a bitch. Girls past the age of 16 don't like emos (unless they've got the kind of mental problems you don't want to involve yourself with)

 

[dank69]

It may be hard for you to believe this, but there ARE chicks out there who dig skinny dudes. Just sayin'

 

[SandEagle]

remember guys, ignore the troll and he'll go away =)

but u keep coming back. i dont get it.

OP, too young as in < 10 yrs? sicko. also, i failed calculus 4 times in college and took statistics instead. you'll never use any of it evar in real life

 

[Kyle]

or become anything successful in my imagination.

You're not successful in your imagination- all you imagine is how fucked up your past is and how you have no hope for the future.
Your looks have nothing to do w/ not meeting women...the fruit loop pic is pretty scary, but your normal pics you don't look any worse than the average guy. There's plenty of ugly/scrawny/nasty guys meeting women, so stop blaming it on your looks.
As for your classes- don't say you can't catch up- stop backing down from challenges...you know how many times in college I thought "there's no way in hell I'm going to be able to get this done/learn this/pass this test" etc...it's *supposed* to be hard...if you forgot your basics, hit the fucking books- pull a few all nighters and catch up- if you knew it at one time, you'll pick it up quick.
As a previous poster said- stop feeling sorry for yourself- it'll get you nowhere.

 

[Kirby]

wtf you dropped a class because you couldn't remember some basic shit? spend 10 minutes of your wanking time and review. jesus fucking christ, it's like you want to fail at life.

 

[nerp]

You sound like a real quitter. As soon as things get tough, you bail. That's a recipe for success and happiness.

 

[fatpat268]

wait what? First you take half the post to get to your point...

And what is your point?
You had problems in your "calculus" (sorry everything you mentioned didn't sound like calc) and now you're like FML? Stay in the class and don't drop unless you're sure you'll fail.

 

[PieIsAwesome]

You should of had a math class your very first semester. Now you find out, too late, that you are don't even know algebra. Even if you had to start with College Algebra, if you had started your first semester, you would have been at or close to Calculus.

wait what? First you take half the post to get to your point...

And what is your point?
You had problems in your "calculus" (sorry everything you mentioned didn't sound like calc) and now you're like FML? Stay in the class and don't drop unless you're sure you'll fail.

You didn't use "logs, ln, e^x," in your Calculus classes? Interesting. :hmm: