<< At this particular time,- you are feeling that you are/or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams.....You feel that everything is against you...But look on the bright side...for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor....
Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people, but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat... and someone who understands you is so important in your life...
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual...pretending that you are stoical...indifferent, that is to pain or pleasure. But this is not so...for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions...and perhaps repent in leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real "you". The you that you would like to be. ...
Recently everything seems to have gone wrong .. and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of "Should I?" or ... "Shouldn't I?"..At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation ... and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essentialdecision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.
You seem to be always on the defensive and that is because you have failed to establish yourself in a manner consistent with your own high opinion of yourself. You are trying to prove yourself with inadequate resources, and this has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to escape from these excessive demands on your reserves by adopting a defensive attitude in which you refuse to be committed or to be involved in further unpleasantness.
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Ahh!!!! THAT is creepy...describes me perfectly. Every paragraph is absolutely accurate. Wow. Great find, Karatehon. Geez. Wow.
One question though-Why does this guy keep going back and forth from the british to the american spelling of color?