Well any sympathy I might have had for you went out the window as soon as you said that whole line of
"also I am so mad that when he is in his bed dieing in the hospital I he will never see me. ( but I know If i say that I probably wont get money from him or something) "
You'll get no respect or sympathy from me after that.
GROW THE FVCK UP AND DEAL WITH IT INSTEAD OF CRYING ON A FORUM ABOUT IT!
There, thats my advice.