My kitty 'Max' recently died too, btw. I loved him to death, literally, and obviously still do very very much. He will always be in my heart, but I am glad he isnt in pain or suffering any way anymore. He was just so frail. He lived a full life, oh geze, atleast 14 years, and passed peacefully in his sleep. Atleast we hope that he was asleep or something, but some times when he was lying on the couch at the end, he would have his eyes open, but never blink, just a blank, sad, straining, tired, stare. Sometimes during this time he wouldnt respond either, it was like he was in a coma, God, I cant bear to think about those couple days. I'm nearly in tears, ok now I am, damnit 🙁. I cant count exactly how long we had him, I hardly remember anything before we got him. I was so little, he was my buddy, I knew him for my entire life, that I remember. I am 21. My real first kittly 'Fella' died when I was very young, and although I remember bawling my eyes out when we were rushing him around trying to help him, he had some heart problems and didnt live as long as he would have otherwise, a very sad time that was. Ok, seriously I gotta stop, its heart wrenching hearing these stories.
I still have two cats now. Sparky, the older more mellow one, and Gus, who was unfortunately traumatized at a VERY young age by a damn dog across the street (thats a teary story in itself), and probably separated from his ma too early. We had him since he was just a couple weeks old.
again, I'm sorry 🙁 :brokenheart: 🙁