Okay guys, I finally fell asleep for about 4 hours. Now I feel fine, here's what I've concluded:
I'm 24, I need to lay off the energy drinks and cigarettes. I'm not a big time smoker, but I have been downing energy drinks at least 1 a day for a while, and I think not having a regular sleeping pattern combined with an energy drink every day and my body went into a restless period where it didn't know when to sleep or not.
The other issue I think might have to do with it is that up until the day before yesterday, I was a vegetarian. I still ate eggs and drank milk, but I had no meat ingestion so I was experiencing a lack of iron. I don't know if that's a leading reason or if it's just contributive but I'm sure it's at least somewhat a stimulant of what I was experiencing.
My hands weren't shaky and I wasn't experiencing blank stares or anything. It was more or less, my mind was fully awake and wandering.
I just need to chill and relax and not think about the shit going on at work all the time. For the last 3-4 weeks, whenever I have a couple days off and it's supposed to be R&R time, I always get phone calls from coworkers telling me about one of my colleagues talking trash about me and trying to make me look bad while I'm on my days off. It's really frustrating because then I feel like work envelopes my life and I'm usually the type of person that leaves work at work and home at home. I guess I'll talk to my boss about it, let him know that if I'm such a valuable technician, they should properly deal with this type of gossip and slander going on at work before I have to deal with it myself.
The other thing is that I just recently got involved in a relationship - She's great and everything is fine, but looking at it, maybe my mind hasn't settled into it yet. Even though there's no problems with her, it's still been over a year before her that I took a girl seriously, and it's been about 5 years since my last REAL relationship. Maybe my mind is subconsciously analyzing the situation over and over again because it's not something I'm used to.
The other problem I could think of, psychologically is that I'm not tiring my mind out. I got a job in retail, stopped playing RPG games, stopped reading, stopped writing. When I build my Hackintosh I'm going to submerge myself in production programs and work on my writing more. I need to work out my mind just as much as my body I think.
Thanks a lot for the words guys. I think trying a little bit of everything is what ended up putting me to sleep. I drank a little beer, sheep counted, meditated, took a warm bath. I guess I just did like 20 things to tell my body, "Look you stupid crap, I'm trying to shut you down." Worrying about death teaches me to appreciate my life a little bit more. I'm going to sign back up for school and start doing more productive things with my time.