We've been dating for 5 months (exactly 5 in 2 more days). As a side note, this is the first and only girlfriend I've had and I'm 19. For the past month or so, although we've had our good days, I kept questioning wether or not I wanted to stay with her. We always had these small arguements that always seemed to go further than they should. I don't know if it was because we spent too much time together or what I just don't know.
Anyway, today while at her house (at about 3 pm), she decided to lay down and said she wanted to be there for like a half hour. I didn't want to sit there so I said I'd see her later. At about 8:30 tonight I decided to call her house and decided I was going to break up with her.
It was the hardest conversation I ever had. She started crying and told me how much she loved me and how even through all our arguements, her love kept growing for me. I love her very much too, but all these little arguements seemed like so much to me. I said we needed some time apart. Everything she said about how she loved me and all the stress that she;s had in the last has had her expecting that I would dump her and time after time I didn't. She said she trusted me so much and she is scared she can't imagine finding another great guy like me. She said I broke her heart.
I figured I was going to feel bad, so I went out driving with my friends. I didn't know how bad it would actually be. I feel terrible. There's this pit inside me and I just can't stand to know that she's at home crying and so hurt inside and I can't do anything because I'm the person who broke her heart. There;s part of me that tells me I did something very stupid because she is such a great girl. She would never cheat, she was funny and she was very beautiful. There's a very quiet, but still there, voice that says I did the right thing.
I'm so very sad right now...
Also, just so you guys know, I made the username "Touque" to post another message a few days ago. This was the thread
Anyway, today while at her house (at about 3 pm), she decided to lay down and said she wanted to be there for like a half hour. I didn't want to sit there so I said I'd see her later. At about 8:30 tonight I decided to call her house and decided I was going to break up with her.
It was the hardest conversation I ever had. She started crying and told me how much she loved me and how even through all our arguements, her love kept growing for me. I love her very much too, but all these little arguements seemed like so much to me. I said we needed some time apart. Everything she said about how she loved me and all the stress that she;s had in the last has had her expecting that I would dump her and time after time I didn't. She said she trusted me so much and she is scared she can't imagine finding another great guy like me. She said I broke her heart.
I figured I was going to feel bad, so I went out driving with my friends. I didn't know how bad it would actually be. I feel terrible. There's this pit inside me and I just can't stand to know that she's at home crying and so hurt inside and I can't do anything because I'm the person who broke her heart. There;s part of me that tells me I did something very stupid because she is such a great girl. She would never cheat, she was funny and she was very beautiful. There's a very quiet, but still there, voice that says I did the right thing.
I'm so very sad right now...
Also, just so you guys know, I made the username "Touque" to post another message a few days ago. This was the thread
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