i never even asked her out and tried my best to not make her feel uneadsy about it, but for some reason she really loathed me for the fact i liked her a lot sadly, i never tried to put the blame on her and constantly belittled myself after what i had been thru my 9th grade, i spent another year trying to forget about her and move on. but the problem is i cant deny i keep reminiscing about her... few months ago i somehow found out her email addy and sent her a casual hello email only to leave myself hanging waiting for a reply d'oh!
well, you said you still find her good looking right, but do you still got feelings for her? i am a type of guy that tends to dwell on the past, sux to be me
That sounded similar to what happened to me.
In my case, I think she might have suspected that I liked her but am not too sure. I wrote her 3 letters during one summer when she went to Africa for the Peace Corp. They weren't love letters but more like stupid friendly letters (I didn't want her to know that I liked her!). I was just desperate to maintain some sort of connection with her because she was going to grad school in another state. She was the first girl that I liked enough to write letters to and take a chance of her knowing that I liked her. She wrote back and a friend later told me that my letters made her very happy. Part of me wondered if my friend said that to see if I would admit that I had feelings for the girl. I never heard directly from her during the fall (but she sent email and kept in touch with that friend -- I remember waiting everyday and hoping to get email from her too) and I became very paranoid. I started to think she loathed me. Then she visited my friend in school and I was lucky to be there. When she saw me, she went up to hug me. That was the first time I was ever hugged by a girl in my entire life. I didn't know what to do because I came from a non-hugging family. When that happened, I thought everything was okay. We were still "friends" and that my letters didn't ruin it. It was just a short visit because she and my friend went off to do some things.
But after that I didn't see her again until my friend invited me to an end-of-school barbarque. She specifically mentioned that the girl will be there too. And I was very excited to finally get a chance to see her for a bit. But when I went there she didn't show up until really really late. And some things happened that made me think she was avoiding me and that my friend had to drag her there to see me. When she finally arrived, she almost immediately came up to me to greet me but I was so insecure that I acted almost afraid of her. I think she sensed it and it made her uncomfortable and we both were uncomfortable with each other. After that I never saw her again. It's been about 7 years and I still think about her every day.
So, yes, I still have feelings for her but luckily they are not as strong as before. The angst and yearning seems to have mostly faded. I just hope that she doesn't think the reason I acted so weird the last time she saw me was because I didn't like her or something.
well, you said you still find her good looking right, but do you still got feelings for her? i am a type of guy that tends to dwell on the past, sux to be me
That sounded similar to what happened to me.
In my case, I think she might have suspected that I liked her but am not too sure. I wrote her 3 letters during one summer when she went to Africa for the Peace Corp. They weren't love letters but more like stupid friendly letters (I didn't want her to know that I liked her!). I was just desperate to maintain some sort of connection with her because she was going to grad school in another state. She was the first girl that I liked enough to write letters to and take a chance of her knowing that I liked her. She wrote back and a friend later told me that my letters made her very happy. Part of me wondered if my friend said that to see if I would admit that I had feelings for the girl. I never heard directly from her during the fall (but she sent email and kept in touch with that friend -- I remember waiting everyday and hoping to get email from her too) and I became very paranoid. I started to think she loathed me. Then she visited my friend in school and I was lucky to be there. When she saw me, she went up to hug me. That was the first time I was ever hugged by a girl in my entire life. I didn't know what to do because I came from a non-hugging family. When that happened, I thought everything was okay. We were still "friends" and that my letters didn't ruin it. It was just a short visit because she and my friend went off to do some things.
But after that I didn't see her again until my friend invited me to an end-of-school barbarque. She specifically mentioned that the girl will be there too. And I was very excited to finally get a chance to see her for a bit. But when I went there she didn't show up until really really late. And some things happened that made me think she was avoiding me and that my friend had to drag her there to see me. When she finally arrived, she almost immediately came up to me to greet me but I was so insecure that I acted almost afraid of her. I think she sensed it and it made her uncomfortable and we both were uncomfortable with each other. After that I never saw her again. It's been about 7 years and I still think about her every day.
So, yes, I still have feelings for her but luckily they are not as strong as before. The angst and yearning seems to have mostly faded. I just hope that she doesn't think the reason I acted so weird the last time she saw me was because I didn't like her or something.
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