(Daring to step in this thread...)
OK, here are my thoughts:
I have always considered myself to be gay. I have also always considered myself to be a Christian. I know many gays that are both. They pray regularly, a very nice, do not want special treatment, etc. Nobody knows that they are gay unless they tell you.
However, I have recently been questioning myself about both aforementioned facts. I was born into a family that was great, until they found out that I thought I was gay. Things went downhill. At long last, I was removed from the family. I now live with an awesome family, and I love them, and they say that they love me. They know about the gay issue, and they don't approve of it, but they tolerate it. They are very religious people, and they attend a Baptist church every day. Instead of going with them, they allow me to go to church once a week with their sons, who go to a non-denomonational church in the area. When I first started going there, I really liked the church. Things have changed.
I no longer have any relationship with God, nor am I really striving for one any more. I have managed to stay away from the church for two weeks (only by claiming that I'm sick and staying in the bathroom most of the morning), and I really don't care if I ever go back. I've also been questioning the declaration that I'm gay. I talked with one of my two best friends, very in-depth. For the last month or two, I've not been attracted to solely males. I've wanted to be sexually attracted to females for ages, and it's finally (starting) to happen. However, if I were to think about it... if I were to imagine the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with, I still picture a man. I don't know why... just the companionship, the understanding, etc. Hopefully that will change in the near future too.
There has recently been a tension in the air at home. I've been afraid that I'm going to mess something up. I can't tolerate going to church much longer, and that's not a good thing at all. I need to find an apartment as soon as possible, because I want to move out before I make things bad here at home. I'm not the same person that I was when I moved in last August. I've been given freedom, and I've enjoyed it (though I have NOT done anything illegal, etc, I restricted my own freedom), and I've been able to explore my personality. I don't want to bother with church right now. I can't stand a lot of the bigotry and such that is happening. Maybe that will change in the future; I don't know. I need to be able to be whoever I am without being afraid to express that. I want to talk to one of my friends asap, because he also wants an apartment... he knows about everything I'm going through, and he is an awesome guy for loving me without regard for my sexual preferences, religious, etc. I'm hoping that we can share an apartment or something together. He brought it up once before, but I tabled the issue then. Wonder if it still stands... but I digress; back to topic.
I can't speak for the gay population, but I have always said that you are born straight or gay. Right now I haven't got a clue about whether I was right or wrong. Maybe it's a combination of both, some being born that way, some just inadvertently becoming that way because of environment, etc. I don't know. You'll be able to fight about it for ages, because no conclusion will ever be reached. The topic will either die or be locked by moderation...
Andrew