So...to make a long story short, i've managed to infatuate myself with a girl at work over the course of this past year. She's always been off and on with her now ex-bf who she still remains friends with. I didn't know until recently, but she was engaged to him shortly after her mother passed away, but she broke off the engagement about 6 months down the road. I've been the shoulder she's cried on when he hurt her, when she thought of her mother, and when she had a bad day at work. We work together and i saw her all the time. Spending all this time with her convinced me into thinking "she was the one". I got jealous of her and her best friend who is a guy...and how close they were...and how touchy/feely they are. So....after shutting her out for weeks and thinking about if i actually meant anything to her, i got her two roses and put them under her windshield wiper with a note that read "i'm sorry. -v- Bill". She took the flowers from her car, but didn't say a word to me. Shortly after, i put two more under her wiper and i wrote "if you had a rose for everytime i screwed up, you'd have a full garden". Still no response from her.
The next day, she saw me and said we needed to talk and walk, so that we did. She said she needed time to think about "us" and she "really wanted to get to know me better".
Last night, i went on a date with my old freshman year girlfriend. I had so much fun, i wasn't sure what was going on. We went to dinner and watched the wings game...then went on the streets after they took the cup home. People were going crazy...crowds of girls streaking...people lighting off fireworks...cars honking like crazy..I had a blast.
Back to girl #1...So...i "officially" asked her out for this saturday. she didn't seem to have a problem with it. I planned on double dating with my friend and going to dinner then bowling. I didn't tell her our plans yet, nor a time. I came back a couple hours later to her after confirming the time was ok with my double-date friend. I asked her if 8:30 was ok to pick her up. She gave me one of those "ehhh.." answers. I told her i wasn't forcing her to go...and that it wasn't too late to back out.
But this is the fvcked up part...now that i know i can date her, she's totally lost her appeal to me. I don't even care if i date her or go out with her. I know i COULD have had it. But..it's still young on friday night and i'm going out with the old freshman girlfriend to have yet, another great time. A friend at work told me even if i didn't want to date girl #1 anymore, to get a *slurrppp* beejer from her.
I dunno...so many thoughts....such little space...such a short attention span.
thanks for your ears.
-=bmacd=-
The next day, she saw me and said we needed to talk and walk, so that we did. She said she needed time to think about "us" and she "really wanted to get to know me better".
Last night, i went on a date with my old freshman year girlfriend. I had so much fun, i wasn't sure what was going on. We went to dinner and watched the wings game...then went on the streets after they took the cup home. People were going crazy...crowds of girls streaking...people lighting off fireworks...cars honking like crazy..I had a blast.
Back to girl #1...So...i "officially" asked her out for this saturday. she didn't seem to have a problem with it. I planned on double dating with my friend and going to dinner then bowling. I didn't tell her our plans yet, nor a time. I came back a couple hours later to her after confirming the time was ok with my double-date friend. I asked her if 8:30 was ok to pick her up. She gave me one of those "ehhh.." answers. I told her i wasn't forcing her to go...and that it wasn't too late to back out.
But this is the fvcked up part...now that i know i can date her, she's totally lost her appeal to me. I don't even care if i date her or go out with her. I know i COULD have had it. But..it's still young on friday night and i'm going out with the old freshman girlfriend to have yet, another great time. A friend at work told me even if i didn't want to date girl #1 anymore, to get a *slurrppp* beejer from her.
I dunno...so many thoughts....such little space...such a short attention span.
thanks for your ears.
-=bmacd=-
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