people weren't kidding when they said "find something you really enjoy and make a living out of it". Life, by nature, is absolute meaningless suck. Especially when you don't subscribe to fairy tales to give it that shiny polished coat.
If you can't find something to enjoy while we endure potentially 80 some years of servitude to the carbon cycle, it's going to feel miserable every step of the way.
Don't let it get like that...
You just have to find all the little things that just make your day feel that much better. Pick up a timesink of a hobby, as the joy of constantly doing something that you can use as an escape from the daily stresses has a definite positive impact.
Something go really wrong lately? Invest more time into what you use to escape. Everyone is hardwired differently, but the most common "male" brain trait is the desire to work off stress and emotion, i.e. doing something that is completely unrelated (in your mind) to whatever the stress was, using time and the act of focusing elsewhere to slowly work the mental trauma out. For those types of people, that's actually absolutely necessary.
The opposite is the type that uses techniques to dwell on the bad, immediately focusing on whatever it was and coping through conversation, venting it rather passively but still retaining a little bit as a noted experience.
I'm a bit of both. I like to vent physically, requiring some activity to lose focus on, but sometimes the dwelling nature, sometimes able to talk to someone vaguely and sometimes not, it just kind of stays bottled up and that requires more time spent doing some random activity to focus entirely on. It can be great in some circumstances, but other times this style is just a bitch because I tend to keep stress far longer than I'd like.
dammit - OP went and made a more specific post and now this post is quite off topic.
