Everybody tell me how you're doing

[mizzou]

I'm in pain and on pain killers. About sums up my day.

you should have eaten your finger for vitality

 

[SandEagle]

watching jerry mcguire re-run on tbs. alone. alone and broke. how do you think i'm doing?!

 

[mizzou]

Let's see... my Mom and Dad got divorced 3 months after they found out she was pregnant with me. He moved all the way across the country and remarried. My mother, who got full custody of me and my brother, never did. I got to meet my father maybe 3 times my entire life. He died two years back from leukemia and left us nothing but a letter telling me and my brother that we were terrible sons for never going to visit him.

Recently, my mother has become an increasingly bad alcoholic. My brother is suicidal and a cocaine addict. And I've done nothing but distance myself from them over the past couple of years because I don't know how to handle either situation.

I know you weren't asking for a life story but you got it! Feel better now?

keep yourself out of trouble, and don't let someone elses addiction bring you down. In my opinion, you can't solve someone who is an addict, you can only deal with it.

My stepdad had been "clean" I forgot how many times, he's a fucking drunk slob. We all gave up on him but I always talk with him or visit him as deep down he is a good person< i just won't ever let him drive or do something responsible for me.

parent's are overrated, good friends are where you really find your strength. No friends or parents? You can still make it happy in life but it's much harder IMO.

 

[xanis]

I'm in pain and on pain killers. About sums up my day.

The few days where I was gone on Vicodin (post wisdom teeth removal) was an awesome time. Spongebob + Milkshakes = win :awe:

 

[thecoolnessrune]

Alright, I'm havin torble seing th e keyboard now. I feel calmet now with chep aass wine. Maybe sleep for time now. Thanks for endurin bitchin by me. I will be mortified by the shit i spoewed htre tonight.. I can here the collective minds of AT staring at me with bitter mictures of shame and digust so its time i bowed out for the night and prey for mod mercy..

Thanks for entreaining this foolsh dude in his time of inadquacey.

Yu guys are alright. Best luk to all.

 

[compbuilder00]

Alright, I'm havin torble seing th e keyboard now. I feel calmet now with chep aass wine. Maybe sleep for time now. Thanks for endurin bitchin by me. I will be mortified by the shit i spoewed htre tonight.. I can here the collective minds of AT staring at me with bitter mictures of shame and digust so its time i bowed out for the night and prey for mod mercy..

Thanks for entreaining this foolsh dude in his time of inadquacey.

Yu guys are alright. Best luk to all.

LOL lightweight

 

[crashtestdummy]

Yeah, they had me take screenings which I should have lied about because I tested positive for depression but I can't have that because I have nothing to be depressed about dammit!

But you're right, in time I'll quietly curse ever posted this drivel and ask a mod to hide it for sake of my shattered dignity.

But for tonight the words seem to make sense.

Dude, you don't have to have bad things going on to have depression. Go to a few sessions. If after a month you don't like it, then you don't have to keep going. Besides, counseling will never again be so cheap. Just try to be open minded about it. You've managed to reach out to a public forum, so talking to a confidential counselor shouldn't be a problem.

 

[JJChicken]

Feelin' just fine. OP, heads up, enjoy life

 

[nageov3t]

I had dinner with a couple guys last night and I'm pretty much obsessing over the fact that I don't think they liked me. I thought was going ok, but then at the end I felt like I kinda got blown off.

but I'm doing alright in the bigger scheme of things just moved into an awesome new apartment... I've still got a ton of work to do, but it's a LOT bigger than my old apartment and I'm saving $400/month. it also requires me walking 1+ mile to the train station and back every day, which will hopefully help me lose my last couple pounds.

 

[NinjaTech]

I originally thought this post was an attempt at trolling and I'm still not 100&#37; convinced that it's not. Your post reads like a statistic for a suicidal first year college student with extreme low self esteem. Get some help Sparky.

 

[thecoolnessrune]

Trolling it was not. I'm here and just fine now. As I said that feeling seems to show up more at night. As posted by morning I'd feel ok and I do. I also said I'd be embarrassed about this in the morning and I was definitely right about that. I can almost hear AT's combined ridicule and new ammo against their fellow member. I'm not sure what possessed me to post what I did, but there it is.

But as for a first year college student.. I'm a senior.. And isn't Sparky usually reserved for short scrawny people? (Or kids?). I feel I'm neither.

I appreciate some of the posts that were put here last night, and for those who felt genuine concern, I'm sorry for worrying. For those that are laughing, I suppose I'm glad that at least ya'll are in a good mood

 

[alkemyst]

as a senior in college is your girlfriend a senior in high school yet?

 

[thecoolnessrune]

as a senior in college is your girlfriend a senior in high school yet?

Yeah man.. yeah.

 

[Malak]

parent's are overrated, good friends are where you really find your strength. No friends or parents? You can still make it happy in life but it's much harder IMO.

Obviously you don't have any kids. Parents are far from overrated. I wouldn't trade my parents for any friend that I have. My parents are always there for me, always. But it has always been odd growing up seeing so many people hate their parents. Parents are the root cause for who someone is. They are the immediate culture shaper in most people's lives. Even divorced parents can have an impact. Even orphans are shaped by their surrogate parents. Keep that in mind if you ever have kids, your role is more important than you realize.

 

[alkemyst]

Yeah man.. yeah.

finally

 

[thecoolnessrune]

finally

Glad that's such a relief to you man.

 

[NinjaTech]

Trolling it was not. I'm here and just fine now. As I said that feeling seems to show up more at night. As posted by morning I'd feel ok and I do. I also said I'd be embarrassed about this in the morning and I was definitely right about that. I can almost hear AT's combined ridicule and new ammo against their fellow member. I'm not sure what possessed me to post what I did, but there it is.

But as for a first year college student.. I'm a senior.. And isn't Sparky usually reserved for short scrawny people? (Or kids?). I feel I'm neither.

I appreciate some of the posts that were put here last night, and for those who felt genuine concern, I'm sorry for worrying. For those that are laughing, I suppose I'm glad that at least ya'll are in a good mood

There is no need to apologize. Yes, Sparky could be used for Scrawny Freshman, which you are clearly not. There is nothing wrong with having an off night but there were a lot of red flags in your original post from a clinical perspective. It appears that you could be bi-polar or have some depression issues. There is nothing to be ashamed about, you could just have a chemical imbalance. The concern would be that the depression could get worse. Suck it up and go see someone. The worse that could happen is that you feel a lot better. Take care of yourself and have a great week.

 

[Engineer]

Too much fucking work...not enough fucking pay.

 

[Fenixgoon]

doing well here. i had a good weekend. and i just ordered a dark smoke face shield for my motorcycle helmet. i've been searching for the past ~2 weeks trying to get one. finally!

 

[moshquerade]

Hey everybody. This may sound like a loaner / basement nerd sort of thing but I just want to hear how everyone is doing tonight. Only thing is I made a fail thread earlier. Other than that nothing. Life is lucky and great. I'm in my Senior year in college and have hardly any debt, and live pretty comfortably and have what I feel anyways, is a beautiful girlfriend.

But I can't shake the feeling tonight. It's overwhelming tonight. I dont know why. I'll regret posting this and feel embarrassed about it tomorrow.. It seems to come more and more often at nights. Some nights I feel like I might lose this battle but I always remember that I'd leave too much suffering behind for those I love.

I don't want to talk to anyone because I dont have any problems. I feel like the epitome of a little bitch and I dare say in my ignorance I would criticize anyone who told me they feel like I do with the circumstances I am in.

So remind me how I am so fortunate to be where I am. I came up and made something of myself and have never known brutal labor, or homelessness. I never knew starvation, in fact I'm definitely overweight (220 at 6'2).

Lately I have lost appetite but that's been a good thing. I go to the gym every day and do cardio for 30 minutes.

I will get this off of my chest because I feel like a horrible person. I went to the health department on campus because I felt terrible while on some weight loss pill I was trying. They asked me where I got all that caffeine and I told them a roommate put them in my coffee. I returned for a followup a few hours later to find a campus officer waiting for me and telling me I had to report it.. I lied.. It was all a lie.. I took those pills because I was getting to the point I didn't care what the weight cost me as long as it took it off. I feel like the one thing I had was people's respect. My dad always told me that was most important. Now they want me to get counseling and talk to someone about these problems. I don't have any problems! But I feel everyone's judgment even when they tell me they're just trying to help. I ruined trust and betrayed authority thats there for my safety.

And I have no problems. I have no issues and I'm disgusted with myself for feeling like this.. So remind me AT how fortunate I am. Tell me the *real* issues that some of you all are going through. Pour it out and I will listen quietly. I just want to force some scope of situation into this feeble mind. Then I'll disappear quietly to bed and pray that in the grand scheme of things I dont regret placing these words here.

Thanks guys.

It is ok to question your life at times. Just come to a positive realization and move on. Don't obsess over it.

I think you're doing alright.