5to1baby1in5
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- Apr 27, 2001
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Short answer is that I don't have a maniacal desire for power over others and don't swallow every little lie that's shoved down my throat. And hey, a little self hate isn't such a bad thing (not a lot though, that would indeed suck). I would dearly like to see the demise of Mike and his ilk, and would definitely revel in it. I guess that makes me a bad person for wishing ill on another human being, but I can live with that.How would you explain the difference between him and you? What were you born with that you recognize in him or that you see in yourself that is different from him? Is it genetic? Is it a cosmic curse? Perhaps also, you find such reflections that explain human behavior as I suggested cut too close to the bone. The think about acting our of unconscious feelings and especially trying to avoid seeing them, is that while you can easily persuade yourself your behavior is neutral, it's obvious to others who have faced more of themselves they also once sought to avoid.
Wouldn't it be something if you also hate yourself at a deep and hidden level of feelings when the objective reality is that there's nothing wrong with you. So are you upset or relieved at the good news?