I wish! First love is the biggest painful nightmare.
I mean, I kow he's a jerk, but I still "love" him and feel I would fall for him were he to return. I won't deny that I could be so stupid sometimes. I guess I'm thinking he would have changed by now (I know the Line almost every woman says).
LOL! I know it will never happen and I don't wish it will. I have found someone who is mature and at a different level, would treat me the best, has true luv, is courteous and respectful.
It's a shame to possess that feeling for one's so-called first love, but it appears nature luvs to punish us. :|
