- Dec 5, 2000
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i've been thinking a lot lately about my life - where it is, where its going, and things i didn't do.
for instance, i didn't go to college. my family doesn't have money and my grades in school weren't all that great (especially math) so I probably wouldn't have been able to get into a decent college. also, the last 2 years or so of high school i was extremely unmotivated. i didn't really know what i wanted to do. ended up going to community college shortly after HS for a semester and just couldn't get into it. i was sick of going to school. i was taking 4 classes. stopped going to 2 of them halfway through because i just couldn't grasp what was being taught.
all the while i was working part time at the job i had since i was 15 or 16. worked there for 4 years.
so a little time goes by and i see an ad in the paper for a tech school. they had a 1 year long computer specialist program. sounded like something i wanted to do. well, i learned a few things but mainly it was a waste of time and money (parents paid for it). you got no certifications or anything after completing it.
a few months later i got hired for tech support at a large company. worked there for about 2 years and a friend from work (who also happened to go to the tech school) decided to go for his MS certs. i thought that might be a good idea too. i hated my job and wanted to get out and thought this would help. that was a 6 month course and i ended up getting my mcsa cert.
2 years later (4 years at the company) i get hired for this network admin job i recently complained about.
i'm 25 now, living at home still because i don't feel like i can support myself on my salary, i have no idea what i want to do as a career, where i want to go with my life. i don't feel motivated to do anything. the only time i'm really happy at all is when
my mind is off somwhere else, like in a book, a movie, a game, or listening to music, etc.
i just really don't know what to do and its driving me crazy.
for instance, i didn't go to college. my family doesn't have money and my grades in school weren't all that great (especially math) so I probably wouldn't have been able to get into a decent college. also, the last 2 years or so of high school i was extremely unmotivated. i didn't really know what i wanted to do. ended up going to community college shortly after HS for a semester and just couldn't get into it. i was sick of going to school. i was taking 4 classes. stopped going to 2 of them halfway through because i just couldn't grasp what was being taught.
all the while i was working part time at the job i had since i was 15 or 16. worked there for 4 years.
so a little time goes by and i see an ad in the paper for a tech school. they had a 1 year long computer specialist program. sounded like something i wanted to do. well, i learned a few things but mainly it was a waste of time and money (parents paid for it). you got no certifications or anything after completing it.
a few months later i got hired for tech support at a large company. worked there for about 2 years and a friend from work (who also happened to go to the tech school) decided to go for his MS certs. i thought that might be a good idea too. i hated my job and wanted to get out and thought this would help. that was a 6 month course and i ended up getting my mcsa cert.
2 years later (4 years at the company) i get hired for this network admin job i recently complained about.
i'm 25 now, living at home still because i don't feel like i can support myself on my salary, i have no idea what i want to do as a career, where i want to go with my life. i don't feel motivated to do anything. the only time i'm really happy at all is when
my mind is off somwhere else, like in a book, a movie, a game, or listening to music, etc.
i just really don't know what to do and its driving me crazy.
