I have become fully drowned in pessimism. Its difficult to imagine any way out of this horror short of years of sustained unimaginably horrible eruptions of violence, death, destruction, andchaos, on a scale not seen since the 1940s. I really hope i'm just losing my mind. I am secure here for now, but, i worry about Ukraine, I worry about all the LGBTQ folks, i worry about all the workers who can barely survive, i worry about all the retirees who are going to suffer worse due to loss of benefits. I worry about total economic collapse. I don't know how to turn off the worry. I just save some cash, and consider getting in some range time and arming myself a bit more, maybe getting the wife used to firing a gun as well. I hope for peace, but, it just feels hopeless right now.