I guess the lowest point of despair might be when you realize that your hope is dead, and that no amount of money, love, spirituality...no change in life could ever resurrect it. It seems to be natural to be blown apart occasionally by life's experiences, and then to gradually come together again, hopefully stronger than before. That, I suppose, is the normal person. But then there are those for whom the healing finally stops, where the wounds are too numerous and too deep to be ever be erased. Are you one of these people? I have no idea. But one thing I do know is that if ATOT gives you validation then you probably have some issues to sort out. My advice? Sleep. Don't stay up thinking something cool is going to happen. Don't go hang out with people who suck as much as you. You know nothing cool will happen. It never does. But if you waste your time like a moron going 'out' and coming back with no satisfaction whatsoever you'll just get even sadder. Why not just stay home and sleep? Your bed is warm, and nobody can bother you. You can't be frustrated with trying to do anything cool, because you never attempted anything to begin with.
If you want real help see a therapist. They'll fix you or give you enough drugs so that you won't care anymore. Either way, you win.