- Jan 9, 2001
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Today has been sort of an average day, a little bit of excitement but nothing extremely out of the ordinary, really. Yet, this evening I find myself feeling....depressed.
Now, I've got all kinds of crap on my mind lately (who doesn't), but there's nothing that has drastically changed today. In fact, if anything, everything seems to be heading reasonably in the direction that I hope for. And I know it sounds silly and selfish to be saying all this, given the problems that others are facing (even many of our fellow members on this board). I just, occasionally have a night like tonight, where despite whatever may be actually going on around me or in my life at that particular time, I just get frusturated at things...the realization as you grow up that things never turn out quite like you want them to, people don't usually get what they deserve, and that life itself is ultimately more full of pain than pleasure.
My mother has been diagnosed in the past with certain forms of depression, I don't think that's what's going on with me by any means, but I do have to wonder if maybe it doesn't rub off some. I'm content with things right now for the most part...so why do I feel so dissatisfied and unhappy tonight?
Now, I've got all kinds of crap on my mind lately (who doesn't), but there's nothing that has drastically changed today. In fact, if anything, everything seems to be heading reasonably in the direction that I hope for. And I know it sounds silly and selfish to be saying all this, given the problems that others are facing (even many of our fellow members on this board). I just, occasionally have a night like tonight, where despite whatever may be actually going on around me or in my life at that particular time, I just get frusturated at things...the realization as you grow up that things never turn out quite like you want them to, people don't usually get what they deserve, and that life itself is ultimately more full of pain than pleasure.
My mother has been diagnosed in the past with certain forms of depression, I don't think that's what's going on with me by any means, but I do have to wonder if maybe it doesn't rub off some. I'm content with things right now for the most part...so why do I feel so dissatisfied and unhappy tonight?
