I'm more than likely getting four F's. I've tried to become motivated and return to my normal grades (A's and B's) but I'm just so distressed by everything; teachers (Big time), classmates, future, job, leisure time, and emotions. I've never done this poorly in school and I strongly feel I'm not going to pass this year. I'm failing math, chemistry, social studies, and English; all the non-electives. I'm passing art one, computer applications, and broadcast media with at least an A or B. Math and chemistry really require my attention and I simply cannot give it to them. Social Studies I just don't do the homework because I find it an utter waste of time as do I with other homework. I give school practically nine hours of my day and they want me to take it home and taint me? Lastly, English I am failing because I hate the teacher and she hates me. It's more than likely that it is in my head that she hates me but she despises my writing as much as you all. She hates my speeches because they all relate to gloomy topics whereas she is a perky, middle-aged, typically social English teacher that really does not want to look at any dark side.
The bottom line is that I feel like a very stupid person. I've lost all confidence in anything I do and want to do. My friends don't talk to me because of my negativity (I lost my best friend to this a year ago), my parents are indifferent of anything I do. My dad said I should just go ahead and fail then go to summer school. I was outraged by that because I do not want to be a failure yet who does? My psychologist doesn't listen and constantly believes the conflict is within my family and not myself. I don't have anyone to turn to. I'm sorry about these consistent posts of unhappiness and failure but I have no one any longer. What do I do after I've tried and tried? I've come down to the last straw, an internet forum.
I've hit rock bottom.
The bottom line is that I feel like a very stupid person. I've lost all confidence in anything I do and want to do. My friends don't talk to me because of my negativity (I lost my best friend to this a year ago), my parents are indifferent of anything I do. My dad said I should just go ahead and fail then go to summer school. I was outraged by that because I do not want to be a failure yet who does? My psychologist doesn't listen and constantly believes the conflict is within my family and not myself. I don't have anyone to turn to. I'm sorry about these consistent posts of unhappiness and failure but I have no one any longer. What do I do after I've tried and tried? I've come down to the last straw, an internet forum.
I've hit rock bottom.
