I won't explain to you guys what happened to a 4 year old child . You wouldn't understand any way. But it was profound and had a profound effect on me and my relationship with people .
I tried to run away from it . But my grandson showed me I couldn't.
As you can guess I have few friends as I always pushed people away knowing what I knew as a child.
Fact is I have wanted to die ever since I was able to discern what happened to that 4 year old I infact got very sick over the last few years . But a 2 year old child changed all that. made me except my destiny weather I liked it or not .
You guys know I like to use music to say things , Because I flat out suck at it. But a group along time ago came out with a song. That I attached to myself. This is how I wanted things to turn out for Me.
So I lived alot of years trying to make it so . But failed miserably and at great cost to those closest to me. My grandson changed all that . . Heres the song . and how I wanted it to end for me . I won,t say I am sorry that it doesn't turn out like this but I am deeply hurt by what must be .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W7r0piYk19o