Originally posted by: Chelsey
Can we please just let this thread die?  Ok, I screwed up, I'll admit that.  I'm a stupid 17 year old girl with depression, I'll admit that too.  I cut.  Another thing to admit.  I have low self-esteem.  Why am I telling you guys this?  So that you'll leave me alone!  Seriously, if it weren't for John I would've sliced myself to pieces a long time ago.  I have realized that I am a bad kid, and I'm going to change, I seriously am!  Some people with depression have a person that they cling to, kind of like a security blanket.  For me this person is John.  I am scared to death that one day when I hit rock bottom he won't be there and I will end up killing myself.  Yes, I am suicidal, yes, I cut, yes, I do have issues.  I have been praying for the past few days that a mod will just delete this thread.  Even if they did, it wouldn't do any good, because people keep bringing it up in any other thread that I post in, regardless of its relevance to this topic.  PLEASE just stop talking about this stuff!  I posted this thread when John had to go eat dinner to keep myself from completely breaking down because I was HOPING that someone would halfway understand.  However, nobody did.  I am seriously thinking about just leaving these forums and never returning.  A little childish?  Maybe, but if it keeps me alive then perhaps it's necessary.  Thank you all for making my life miserable.