Originally posted by: Chelsey
Can we please just let this thread die? Ok, I screwed up, I'll admit that. I'm a stupid 17 year old girl with depression, I'll admit that too. I cut. Another thing to admit. I have low self-esteem. Why am I telling you guys this? So that you'll leave me alone! Seriously, if it weren't for John I would've sliced myself to pieces a long time ago. I have realized that I am a bad kid, and I'm going to change, I seriously am! Some people with depression have a person that they cling to, kind of like a security blanket. For me this person is John. I am scared to death that one day when I hit rock bottom he won't be there and I will end up killing myself. Yes, I am suicidal, yes, I cut, yes, I do have issues. I have been praying for the past few days that a mod will just delete this thread. Even if they did, it wouldn't do any good, because people keep bringing it up in any other thread that I post in, regardless of its relevance to this topic. PLEASE just stop talking about this stuff! I posted this thread when John had to go eat dinner to keep myself from completely breaking down because I was HOPING that someone would halfway understand. However, nobody did. I am seriously thinking about just leaving these forums and never returning. A little childish? Maybe, but if it keeps me alive then perhaps it's necessary. Thank you all for making my life miserable.