Yep. Two and a half years down the drain now.
Not gonna go much into detail but wanted to tell everyone since I told everyone that we got engaged last Christmas.
I found out about two weeks ago and I'm finally posting this now. Nicole and I haven't been doing good the past couple months, I knew something was up. She was getting way too close with one of her co-workers (23 year old piece of sh!t) and she kept on telling me over and over again that nothing is happening between them and they are only friends. I bought that until two weeks ago since I got sick and tired of this bullshit.
I installed a conversation logger on her PC since she lives with me because she talks to this guy a lot on AIM. I really didn't want to do this at first because I wanted to trust her but I need some reassurance. Well my suspicions were true, she has been screwing around and playing me the past two months. She even bragged about it to another person on AIM saying that I would never find out.
Hah. I did. 😀
So I called her and asked her to come home and talk to me. I asked her why she was lying and she played stupid at first. Then she finally admitted to it. Didn't really even say sorry, so I said fvck it; we are over.
At first, it was kind of a relief. I've been really worrying about it the past couple months that something was going on and it's finally over. Nicole thinks there is so much out there, and yea, she is right. We are both only 18, met in high school and moved in a rushed a little bit. But this is what she wanted. I didn't want this at first, until last Fall when we moved into together. That December I gave her a ring and asked her to marry me. She said yes of course.
I think the problem was that we are on two different levels. She has many different influences than me. She has a younger workgroup that she talks to and is very influenced from other people, and especially this guy she cheated on me with. I always had a older crowd I worked with and hung out with, all of my friends are a lot older than me. Plus, Nicole is VERY selfish. Always been like this but it's been very bad the past months, trying to push me away.
But I'm doing great though, I need to. I need to look at the positive side of this. I am still very young, and this was a lesson learned. I still love her so much even after what she has done but I will not back down from this. I wouldn't be like this if it wasn't without my friends and family. The funny thing is, everyone I have talked to has had something like this happen to them. It's like "been there, done that" situation and they moved on and found better people! It is just really hard right now thinking that I'm gonna be with someone else than Nicole. I just miss being around her and touching her, before she stabbed in me in my heart. I miss everything we have shared with each other, that's what I will truly miss. But I have to be strong and move on. I am so grateful that I have such good friends and family, I'd be so gone if I didn't have them.
Anyways, it's not the end of my life as I look at it right now. I just hate seeing Nicole fvck up like this. This guy is just playing her like a fool, he's not gonna stick around; all she is is another booty call for this guy. Whatever. Not my problem anymore. I'll just find someone who will appreciate what I have to give. And boy, I gave Nicole so much.
Btw, I took the engagement ring back. Just wanted to rant about it and compare this with Red's story. Thanks guys for listening.
Cliff Notes:
1) Got engaged to my high school sweetheart last Christmas
2) Have been suspicious of her the past couple months
3) Found out that she is sleeping with her co-worker
4) Told her to shove it
5) I'm single now.
Oh, and I'm listening to the song Eamon - Fvck It (I don't want you back). Very funny song.
Later guys,
Dan
EDIT: Jesus people, I am not fvcking joking here. No parody thread, this is real. Just read Red's thread and felt like I wanted to post this. :|
Not gonna go much into detail but wanted to tell everyone since I told everyone that we got engaged last Christmas.
I found out about two weeks ago and I'm finally posting this now. Nicole and I haven't been doing good the past couple months, I knew something was up. She was getting way too close with one of her co-workers (23 year old piece of sh!t) and she kept on telling me over and over again that nothing is happening between them and they are only friends. I bought that until two weeks ago since I got sick and tired of this bullshit.
I installed a conversation logger on her PC since she lives with me because she talks to this guy a lot on AIM. I really didn't want to do this at first because I wanted to trust her but I need some reassurance. Well my suspicions were true, she has been screwing around and playing me the past two months. She even bragged about it to another person on AIM saying that I would never find out.
Hah. I did. 😀
So I called her and asked her to come home and talk to me. I asked her why she was lying and she played stupid at first. Then she finally admitted to it. Didn't really even say sorry, so I said fvck it; we are over.
At first, it was kind of a relief. I've been really worrying about it the past couple months that something was going on and it's finally over. Nicole thinks there is so much out there, and yea, she is right. We are both only 18, met in high school and moved in a rushed a little bit. But this is what she wanted. I didn't want this at first, until last Fall when we moved into together. That December I gave her a ring and asked her to marry me. She said yes of course.
I think the problem was that we are on two different levels. She has many different influences than me. She has a younger workgroup that she talks to and is very influenced from other people, and especially this guy she cheated on me with. I always had a older crowd I worked with and hung out with, all of my friends are a lot older than me. Plus, Nicole is VERY selfish. Always been like this but it's been very bad the past months, trying to push me away.
But I'm doing great though, I need to. I need to look at the positive side of this. I am still very young, and this was a lesson learned. I still love her so much even after what she has done but I will not back down from this. I wouldn't be like this if it wasn't without my friends and family. The funny thing is, everyone I have talked to has had something like this happen to them. It's like "been there, done that" situation and they moved on and found better people! It is just really hard right now thinking that I'm gonna be with someone else than Nicole. I just miss being around her and touching her, before she stabbed in me in my heart. I miss everything we have shared with each other, that's what I will truly miss. But I have to be strong and move on. I am so grateful that I have such good friends and family, I'd be so gone if I didn't have them.
Anyways, it's not the end of my life as I look at it right now. I just hate seeing Nicole fvck up like this. This guy is just playing her like a fool, he's not gonna stick around; all she is is another booty call for this guy. Whatever. Not my problem anymore. I'll just find someone who will appreciate what I have to give. And boy, I gave Nicole so much.
Btw, I took the engagement ring back. Just wanted to rant about it and compare this with Red's story. Thanks guys for listening.
Cliff Notes:
1) Got engaged to my high school sweetheart last Christmas
2) Have been suspicious of her the past couple months
3) Found out that she is sleeping with her co-worker
4) Told her to shove it
5) I'm single now.
Oh, and I'm listening to the song Eamon - Fvck It (I don't want you back). Very funny song.
Later guys,
Dan
EDIT: Jesus people, I am not fvcking joking here. No parody thread, this is real. Just read Red's thread and felt like I wanted to post this. :|
