My first one was at 16 yrs old, was going on a date with my now wife, had passed my her house one way, turned onto a farming road, to lose some idiots i knew from school that were following me.
I pulled back out, headed towards GF house, it was a gravel road, came up on the railroad tracks and could see tires marks where a vehicle was fishtailing, then over the tracks I could see the F150 stepside vehicle in the ditch with the drivers door opened. I noticed the rear window was full of shirts from one side to the other.
This was where I started slowing down AND thinking to myself, do I stop? will I get in trouble if I don't, what if they're hurt. Will I be in trouble?
As I got closer I could see the body laying in the ditch, with a rifle, presumably a shotgun. ( I was 16 didn't know much about guns) between his legs. Then I saw what was left of his head, very hard to explain, but basically from upper mandible, may have still had a nose, but it was just skin, laying flat, like if you laid a towel on a box. like the whole internal bone structure from the nose up ejected from his skin.
I went the little ways down, knocked on the front door of GF and told her to tell her parents to call 911. She thought I was joking, but I insisted, and her dad and I went back down the road.
He wouldn't let me go close, made me stay at my car. Thats when I noticed all the bright pink, red, black and grey pieces everywhere, in the road.
Thing is I don't recall passing this truck, or seeing it pass while waiting for the idiots from school to keep on going after I lost them. This all occurred in probably a 10 minutes times span, because dude most surely wasn't in the ditch when I passed by the first time.
Obvious suicide.
The next time would be about 10 years later.