BT: Moonbeam, I really do want to sometime learn exactly what you background is, and no it is not just to try to devise better ways to attack your arguments, I want to understand how it is you have come to your beliefs.
M: Hehe, it's not just to devise better ways to attack my arguments but that in good part? I am a nobody. Socrates showed me that in story where he discovered, having been called the wisest man in the world, that indeed he knew one more thing than anybody else. Do you know the story? He was indeed the wisest man because he knew that he knew nothing and nobody else knew they knew nothing. I am a nobody and I don't know anything either. Sometimes, however, I forget.
BT: Even when I disagree with people here 98% of the time I can at least see where they are coming from, but the nature of your arguments are somewhat of an enigma to me. All this talk of "self hate" and fancy language is very different from the vast majority of posters here.
M: I don't see my language being fancy at all. It says what I think. As to being an enigma, well as I say, paradox is resolved at higher levels of understanding. You can't resolve paradox if you lack the higher understanding, right. Problem one is that hearing this, people immediately become defensive. "Hay, he says I don't have enough understanding. Well I'll show him." And if somebody is willing and interested as you express here, the problem is still not easy. How do you put an old head on young shoulders, as they say. The finger pointing at the moon is not the moon. I can but point.
BT: On one side it seems to me that you are just a troll who gets kicks out of making nonsensical arguments and watching as people are completely confused by your fancy language and condescending attitude.
M: I will sometimes be as direct with fools as they are with me.
BT: On the other hand it always possible that you actually DO believe what you are saying at which point there are two further possibilities, namely that you are just stupid, or that you have a very different background than most everyone here.
M: I do believe what I am saying. I point by flustering assumptions. I am saying not there but here. Be modest and don't assume. Neither of those alternatives is right, in my opinion. My background is similar to yours, but it has taken me perhaps to different places. I fought a war against the Nothing and won. I know that makes no sense but it's a long story and I have told it ad nauseum here before. I was taught by profoundly wise people. But I didn't learn much. 😉
BT: Now I really am trying to give you the benefit of the doubt here and assume that you are not a troll and that you are an intelligent person, but your refusal to provide and background information on the foundations of your arguments makes it hard to understand where you are coming from.
M: Thank you. Perhaps something in what I say resonates with a part of you you long for. Who is to say? But it is not the lack of background that makes me hard to understand. It is your lack of awareness as to what you feel. I know you don't understand that remark either. I was blown away by what I found within. I could not believe it.
BT: How do you expect us to understand your arguments if we have no understanding what underlying beliefs are influencing them?
M: Long ago I sought meaning. I set out to prove the good. I completely failed and found only hopeless empty misery. At the moment I completely took in that everything was totally without meaning I suddenly saw that my need for meaning was itself without any meaning at all. In a split second I went from the deepest anguish to peace. I no longer have any underlying beliefs. I lost them all. Everything that can be taken was taken but that which one can't lose and that is ones real self. The self and the universe are in love.
BT: Clearly our difference of opinions on nuclear power (as well as a whole host of issues) are not simply incidental differences, but are based on vastly different views of looking at the world. Now, we have told you where we are coming from here and if you would do the same it might actually make people on this forum better able to understand and respond to your arguments as opposed to simply considering them silly and dismissing them out of hand.
M: I can speak but can you hear? It is important for you to be understood. I know that I can't be understood. I can only point and only really when somebody like you seriously asks. To me the world is completely upside down so I am upside down in your world, no?
BT: Are you for example a major in philosophy?, are you one of the people who thinks "the man" is out to get us?, did you read perhaps too much Nietzsche and thinks they are now some man who has transcended those of us with the "herd mentality"?, perhaps you were an engineer at some point and became disillusioned with your employment.
M: This is what poped into my head:
I want to live,
I want to give
Ive been a miner for a heart of gold.
Its these expressions I never give
That keep me searching for a heart of gold
And Im getting old.
Keeps me searching for a heart of gold
And Im getting old.
Ive been to hollywood
Ive been to redwood
I crossed the ocean for a heart of gold
Ive been in my mind, its such a fine line
That keeps me searching for a heart of gold
And Im getting old.
Keeps me searching for a heart of gold
And Im getting old.
Keep me searching for a heart of gold
You keep me searching for a heart of gold
And Im getting old.
Ive been a miner for a heart of gold.