I neither have the ambition nor the initiative not only to improve my station in life but even to accomplish simple day to day tasks sometimes. I am lazy to a fault, and I can't remember how it came to this. I'm too lazy to get stuff lined up for the wedding, to get my car registered, to fix and sell my other car, to clean the garage, to do my laundry, to water my plants, to cook dinner, to go through my mail, to build this or plan that, hell I'm even too lazy to play video games when I get home from work.
It's no way to go through life I realise, but the idea of confrontation or change is always less desirable that the benefits it would reap. I tend to shy away from social situations when possible. I only work 40 hours a week most of the time, but I have no energy. I don't exercize enough. I drink often, but not a lot. I waste an incalculatable amount of time on trivial web endeavors not for profit but sheerly for my own entertainment or information. Sometimes I feel like nothing would make me happier than doing nothing at all, even sex with the fiancee or beers with the guys.
When I actually get going I get a ton accomplished, I devise projects, work on hobbies, I go out and do stuff that I enjoy. I spend a great deal of time with my fiancee and she is of a similar lethargic disposition sometimes, and I don't know whether or not that is positive for either of us. I don't know what would motivate me because I'm generally a happy person content with my situation and relationships, even my job is tolerable and provides adequate money. I could further my education, but really I can't see being that much happier with more responsibity in trade for more expendible cash. I don't feel that meeting new people would be any better than the people I already know. I'm also pretty paranoid.
It's no way to go through life I realise, but the idea of confrontation or change is always less desirable that the benefits it would reap. I tend to shy away from social situations when possible. I only work 40 hours a week most of the time, but I have no energy. I don't exercize enough. I drink often, but not a lot. I waste an incalculatable amount of time on trivial web endeavors not for profit but sheerly for my own entertainment or information. Sometimes I feel like nothing would make me happier than doing nothing at all, even sex with the fiancee or beers with the guys.
When I actually get going I get a ton accomplished, I devise projects, work on hobbies, I go out and do stuff that I enjoy. I spend a great deal of time with my fiancee and she is of a similar lethargic disposition sometimes, and I don't know whether or not that is positive for either of us. I don't know what would motivate me because I'm generally a happy person content with my situation and relationships, even my job is tolerable and provides adequate money. I could further my education, but really I can't see being that much happier with more responsibity in trade for more expendible cash. I don't feel that meeting new people would be any better than the people I already know. I'm also pretty paranoid.
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