The problem I find within myself is that while I may have all the intentions in the world to think for myself, because I can't determine the roots of all of my attitudes and biases, what I wish to be like and what I am like may be very different things. It was no easy matter, for example, to know I hate myself in the abstract by experiencing buried feelings, leaving god knows how many I still have hidden while knowing for pretty sure they are still some there. The bottom line for me here then, is that I can't really say the way I think and live is really MY WAY.