I have never found that much interest in anything i do. I try to have fun, I always do the stuff i like to do and try new things. Everything seems the same to me its either boring or i lose interest. I look forward to having a family. Finding the perfect woman for me and having chrildren but im a afraid that will lead to the same disappointment everything else does. I have so much stuff i want to do in life but I know i will never be able to do it all. Thats just makes me ask why bother at all. I don't believe in god and have no beliefs just that anything is possible. I know this is what bothers me the most because i don't know how to live. I want to do the right thing but i don't know what the right thing is. Sometimes i just want to die to have all my questions answered but i don't even know if they would be.
