- Jan 3, 2006
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I don't know what to make of this, whether it's serious or not.
Here is the dream...My parents are out of state, I go out to visit them. While I am there, we go out to dinner. As usual my dad is ready in the car while my mom double checks her hair and makeup in the bathroom mirror. She has a habit of being ready, and then running back to the mirror to do this girly fretting. My friend is there as well (this probably came from the fact she was there the last time I went)
I went in to check on my mom, who was still in front of the mirror doing eyeliner.
I decide to look at something I fixed earlier. Either a shaving nick, or a bleeding nose I clotted while getting ready. All of a sudden, it starts bleeding again. But really bad. I tried to grap a towel or something, but it starts going off, like a bad gunshot wound. I get woozy fast, I almost collapse but brace myself on the counter.
For a split second, my mom freaks out. She quickly composes herself and helps me to the ground. I go in and out of conscienceness, I keep trying to stay alive/awake. I think I mutter out that it's too late, and that I will miss my parents. This happened so fast, I don't think a phone could be found by the time I know I am screwed.
The last thing I remember is my friend trying to help. She is an EMT in life, but in the dream, I guess I bled so much...she just tried to comfort my last second or two.
Then that was it. I guess I died in my dream.
Ever since then, I have been in a funk. I get numb to stuff I usually react to at work. Like something that will normally make me laugh, or get mad at something stupid. Didn't happen Monday or today.
Everytime I think about I almost well up. Not really at me dying. But my mom witnessing it, and seeing me die without dignity, with blood everywhere.
I don't know what to feel, how to fix it. I'm sure I'll snap out of it, but in the meantime it's weird.
Here is the dream...My parents are out of state, I go out to visit them. While I am there, we go out to dinner. As usual my dad is ready in the car while my mom double checks her hair and makeup in the bathroom mirror. She has a habit of being ready, and then running back to the mirror to do this girly fretting. My friend is there as well (this probably came from the fact she was there the last time I went)
I went in to check on my mom, who was still in front of the mirror doing eyeliner.
I decide to look at something I fixed earlier. Either a shaving nick, or a bleeding nose I clotted while getting ready. All of a sudden, it starts bleeding again. But really bad. I tried to grap a towel or something, but it starts going off, like a bad gunshot wound. I get woozy fast, I almost collapse but brace myself on the counter.
For a split second, my mom freaks out. She quickly composes herself and helps me to the ground. I go in and out of conscienceness, I keep trying to stay alive/awake. I think I mutter out that it's too late, and that I will miss my parents. This happened so fast, I don't think a phone could be found by the time I know I am screwed.
The last thing I remember is my friend trying to help. She is an EMT in life, but in the dream, I guess I bled so much...she just tried to comfort my last second or two.
Then that was it. I guess I died in my dream.
Ever since then, I have been in a funk. I get numb to stuff I usually react to at work. Like something that will normally make me laugh, or get mad at something stupid. Didn't happen Monday or today.
Everytime I think about I almost well up. Not really at me dying. But my mom witnessing it, and seeing me die without dignity, with blood everywhere.
I don't know what to feel, how to fix it. I'm sure I'll snap out of it, but in the meantime it's weird.
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