suicide

[Heller]

thanks for the compassion from those whove givin it. im taking the advice of my other friends post
(taking a shower and getting dressed, every day even if im staying home all day)
they keeep telling me i have a chemical imbalance. I just feel sick and tired of being sick and tired for myself i need to take a stand and let the depression hit me like a brick, that way i get it over with, im taking the appropriate measures. Suicide is something very sad to me, its close to heart cause i can only imagine how the person is truly feeling, i contemplated it a few times when i was 11-14 but i never had the balls to do anything.

 

[wheresmybacon]

Though really that is often what it takes.. I was on meds for a long time.. not to cure me.. but to allow me to be sane enough to actually receive cognitive therapy. One is unable to accept rational reason when they are ill (even if it comes and goes) yet rational thought and self modification to thought patterns is really the only way I know of that actually helps long term.

It is woefully incomplete to say that just step back... but in the end stepping back and thinking are what it takes.. just that it is impossible until a doctor can control the illness enough. That is one of teh reasons it is so hard to get people to take teh meds.. tehy still feel like crap, the side effects are brutal, and now they rationally realize the problems and it becomes overwhelming. One ends up feeling far worse than they did when they had no real understanding of the insanity.

Oh I agree that cognitive therapy is needed too, I'm just saying from personal experience that that sort of therapy wouldn've been completely futile until I was - to put it simply - stable. And the meds were what got me there initially.

I didn't mean to imply meds were the only way. Just in my experience until I was willing to accept professional help and try medication, I didn't get better no matter how much I wanted to.

 

[skyking]

thanks for the compassion from those whove givin it. im taking the advice of my other friends post
(taking a shower and getting dressed, every day even if im staying home all day)
they keeep telling me i have a chemical imbalance. I just feel sick and tired of being sick and tired for myself i need to take a stand and let the depression hit me like a brick, that way i get it over with, im taking the appropriate measures. Suicide is something very sad to me, its close to heart cause i can only imagine how the person is truly feeling, i contemplated it a few times when i was 11-14 but i never had the balls to do anything.

Don't say that man, it is the most cowardly thing you could do. Get showered and dressed and get the heck out of the house!:thumbsup:

 

[Daedalus685]

Oh I agree that cognitive therapy is needed too, I'm just saying from personal experience that that sort of therapy wouldn've been completely futile until I was - to put it simply - stable. And the meds were what got me there initially.

I didn't mean to imply meds were the only way. Just in my experience until I was willing to accept professional help and try medication, I didn't get better no matter how much I wanted to.

That was my experience too. The therapy was useless without stability of the meds.. even though the side effects were aweful.. But the meds woudl have been useless without the therapy teaching me how to force my thoughts a certain way. It is still powerfully exhausting to keep things in check but it is better than before!

 

[Juddog]

thanks for the compassion from those whove givin it. im taking the advice of my other friends post
(taking a shower and getting dressed, every day even if im staying home all day)
they keeep telling me i have a chemical imbalance. I just feel sick and tired of being sick and tired for myself i need to take a stand and let the depression hit me like a brick, that way i get it over with, im taking the appropriate measures. Suicide is something very sad to me, its close to heart cause i can only imagine how the person is truly feeling, i contemplated it a few times when i was 11-14 but i never had the balls to do anything.

Part of the key is to keep yourself busy so you don't dwell on it.

There are millions of fun things to do out there in the world, and sometimes it helps to just pick up a hobby so that you give your brain something to keep it occupied. Suicide has affected me personally as well; my cousin committed suicide when he was only 20 years old and it was terribly saddening to me as well.

 

[Heller]

I just have no interest in leaving the house today, i spent all day yesterday out of the house looking for a job and nobody is hiring, its depressing when you get rejected from dunkin motherfucking donuts. I cant get a job, i've never been so broke and owed so many people so much money. I just cant wait to start school again in the fall, the worst thing i did was take the summer off, i just cant sit around the house all day, i might as well be in class getting my education then sitting home jobless and depressed.

 

[Sea Moose]

you could get the text books for the next semester and start studying and reading up. You would be miles ahead and prolly get Aplus pluss!

 

[disappoint]

You could also not give up so easily and keep looking. Just because no one wants to hire you today doesn't mean someone won't tomorrow, or next week. Do you read the paper? One of the best jobs I found once advertised in the local newspaper.

 

[Heller]

You could also not give up so easily and keep looking. Just because no one wants to hire you today doesn't mean someone won't tomorrow, or next week. Do you read the paper? One of the best jobs I found once advertised in the local newspaper.

no but i check craigslist daily.

 

[tyler811]

Dude you need a man hug

*gives heller a hug*


Dude you have had some troubles lately, perhaps talk to a councilor or a chaplain.

Moose yous a good person.

 

[AtlantaBob]

OP, sorry to hear about your Mom's friend's daughter. As Sea Moose says, sometimes you can find some good folks at church (sometimes they can make you want to punch somebody, too, but that's a good sign to find another group).

Just wanted to let you know that you're certainly not alone in this economy -- it's rough for a lot of people out there, and I definitely know that it stinks when you can't find a job or when you're "underemployed." I don't mean to sound sanctimonious or anything, but I've also found that it helps to shower and get dressed and be at my (home-office) desk by 9 AM every morning. At least it feels like you're doing something. Also, there's always the blessing that you get to go back to school in the fall -- hopefully, by the time you graduate, the job market will have recovered some. Finally, it might be a good time to do some sort of project that you've always wanted to learn (over the last couple of weeks, I've been working on my programming and cooking skills, but some friends have started to work out, or go hiking). Sometimes, investing time in a "hobby" can help you feel like you're being productive too -- at least more so than watching Ricki Lake or The Price is Right.

Finally, I came across this today and thought it was some pretty good advice -- it may not be that applicable to you, but it struck me -- so if it's useful, enjoy (the rest of the blog has some good stuff about finances -- I know you said that was an issue at the moment, so maybe that'll be useful as well).

http://www.thesimpledollar.com/2010/07/22/ten-big-mistakes-4-blaming-others-for-challenges/

Anyway, like I said, don't want to sound like a know-it-all, but those are some things that have helped me. Good luck!